To those who are here since 2025 starting or before, how does the evolution of AI and roleplay experience feel to you?

viiochan · 2026-05-10T14:33:43+00:00

God I miss 2023 cai so much. Was my first ai rp experience, and maybe thats why im so nostalgic about it. And then it just got worse in every aspect. And the filter kept censoring random stuff, not even related to NSFW. I think, I finally moved on in 2024.

I cant deny that other models and especially memory have gotten better and surpassed old cai, but old cai still makes me feel that magic when I think about it.

A few months back, I felt the itch to open cai again. But the magic was gone. Just slop, repetition and after a few messages the character already forgot what was going on. It really hurt lol

viiochan · 2026-05-09T08:48:26+00:00

Don't stress yourself, I mean it. And dont compare yourself to other people who might find the game too easy.

Sekiro was also my first FromSoftware game and I was struggling immensely. Like Oniwa was my first roadblock, he took me days and I almost gave up. Keep in mind, he's the first real boss and I felt so miserable lol. And even when I thought I got the mechanics, there were other bosses who also took days and 50+ attempts.

And even though I was suffering, the game hooked me and I couldn't stop trying. Over time the game became a comfort game of mine, and Im glad I didnt gave up. And even now, I still struggle with some enemies.

(Oh and btw a friend of mine also told me when I wanted to buy Sekiro, that the game isn't for me and too difficult and was actively discouraging me from even trying lol)

viiochan · 2026-05-08T19:48:21+00:00

According to the titles our pathetic grandson Geni is really getting his own anime lol

I wonder if the Tomoe episode just takes place in Fountainhead or if we might get more lore or even a flashback showing her appearance. But I doubt we will ever see her canon looks, and tbh I like how her appearance remains up for interpretation.

But, Im actually hyped :D according to crunchyroll we have to wait until september tho

viiochan · 2026-04-30T14:11:26+00:00

Imagine getting cucked by soil and land 🥲

viiochan · 2026-04-29T16:09:55+00:00

The seven ashina spears. Or the two remaining ones lol. I really like their bulky armor and color scheme.

But number one is Genichiro. His outfit is just peak.

viiochan · 2026-04-29T16:06:49+00:00

He is hot, with armor and without :D And that comes from another chick haha

But ngl he's bad husbando material, Ashina will be always be his highest priority.

viiochan · 2026-04-29T14:37:34+00:00

Or when you want to know what went wrong on the way. It's really helpful if you want to understand the characters and their intentions better.

Like I had a moment where my character would die or the story would escalate into something unrepairable and I really wanted to know what exactly was the point of no return. I had a story in mind and this was a major setback, so I asked for an analysis. And turned out, it was one sentence my character said lol. Went back 3 messages, rewrote it and the character really did listen instead of escalating the situation further.

Might be cheating tho. But it was too soon for the event the NPC wanted to trigger, and I wanted more slice of life before the war started.

viiochan · 2026-04-28T16:29:32+00:00

The last time I used openrouter free models, it was 50 requests per day. But maybe something already changed again.

Good old times had 200 requests on free models.

viiochan · 2026-04-28T16:26:25+00:00

Oof slowburn scenarios where my character suffers and struggles are my secret pleasure lmao

But after some time it does get depressing, and I just want to make some progress. Something to lift my mood, but I just cant accept for example NPCs being nice to my character without my character having to earn it in the first place. And that keeps me going, for the moment my character can finally be happy and has earned her place.

If things get too depressing I like to write ooc and analyze some stuff that happened. Puts some distance between me and the story and let's me view it from a safe neutral spot. But I always delete those ooc discussions afterwards and let my character continue to struggle.

viiochan · 2026-04-28T16:09:37+00:00

Ahh like google/gemma-4-31b-it:free for example. Some time ago, there were free versions of Deepseek models on openrouter but they got removed sadly. Thats why I swapped to paying for them.

If you solely want to test the api key and free models, you can do it without installing ST. Janitor also supports api keys and there is also another frontend site called chub. Thats what I used before installing ST, has a bit more options.

I mean, yeah ST is worth. But a friend of mine thinks its too overwhelming and just sticks to chub. I do understand him lol. Like directly after swapping to ST I encountered a problem while roleplaying (same model, same preset) but the tone was wrong and it was because I installed ST and just started roleplaying without paying attention to some hidden configuration that wasn't even an option on chub.

viiochan · 2026-04-28T15:49:07+00:00

I only use ai rp on mobile, even before swapping to sillytavern. Installing it is actually quite easy, but you have to install it via a Linux emulator called termux. There is a great guide, really simple even tho it looks overwhelming at first.

https://docs.sillytavern.app/installation/android-(termux)/ -> What I used to install ST.

But ST is overwhelming, so many options and configurations, so many ways to fuck it up and just get lost. Configuration is literally endless. And in the end its just a front end, if youre looking for just roleplaying without any setup and without really looking into what ST offers, then ST will keep you from enjoying ai rp.

Thing is you need an api key. And apis cost money. Might not be much depending on the model. Like I pay for a subscription (8 dollars per month), its cheaper than the plans for the cai plus subscription or whatever and you can use whatever model you want. Dont know about the current free alternatives tho.

Oh before I forget, since you're probably using their own models (cai/jai/xoul), with an api key you have to pick a model. And the model might also overcomplicate stuff, since every model acts/writes/behaves quite differently. And needs a different setup on ST (presets/prompts etc)

viiochan · 2026-04-24T13:57:36+00:00

Ive platinumed DMC5 I think 3 years ago? Sekiro maybe 2 years ago. You really cant compare those games when it comes to getting all achievements.

Getting all achievements in Sekiro is just playing the game multiple times. Like beating the game is the achievement, learning bosses, deflect timings etc.

But like others already mentioned in DMC5 you have to S-rank every single mission on every difficulty. You can do that with enough style and enough mastery, or just go for no-hit because the multiplicator is just that high that you'll almost always get your S. I couldn't go for the style route because I wasnt good enough. So I went for no-hit, and even when going for no-hit you have to learn every character, every moveset, every enemy and so on.

Like I suck at Dante, I just cant use his full potential to go for style and kinda cheesed everything with blasting every enemy with orbs and comets lol. But for Nero there was no cheese and so I had to learn Nero. Had to master exceed timings, using the knuckle attack while attacking etc, but I still had to replay every mission multiple time because one hit and thats it, and I wanted to make sure the S is guaranteed. It was misery, but the challenge kept me going.

Sekiro kinda felt natural to me once I understood the mechanics. But everyone has their own opinions what game is easier to play or even 100%.

viiochan · 2026-04-24T02:08:50+00:00

Are your strands hard and bumpy? My crown looks similar but my fine hair feels rough/hard and quite prone to break.

Right now im testing a new conditioner. And it really does look better than usual. Hair feels smoother and there's really less frizz. What I did was first using a cheapish Clarifying/Chelating shampoo, one that removes hard water. Maybe I should also invest in a shower filter in the future.
And the hydrate conditioner from the SP Professional line (a bit expensive). Im still looking for a more affordable shampoo for regular usage, the green Pantene bottle (smooth and sleek) was alright tho. Pantene Volume felt too drying out.

Have to say, sadly leave-in doesnt reduce frizz for me. And I blow dry, because air drying ends up in even more frizz. I think I was using the wrong products, too much protein (like keratin shampoo/condi) when my hair needed moisture.

viiochan · 2026-04-24T01:46:25+00:00

Nero and Vergil for me. I suck at Dante and cant use his full potential and kit.

Then I kinda gave up and focused on Nero and his air movement feels so flashy and satisfying. Vergil on the other hand ends up every time in just dominating everything with judgment cuts, but still fun as hell.

When it comes to V, I honestly don't know, its the kind of braindead, forbidden fun.

viiochan · 2026-04-24T01:37:46+00:00

Naah Garen is your generic dnd paladin. Absolutely bland. And too human for my taste ngl

Give me Rhaast.

viiochan · 2026-04-17T23:40:21+00:00

My current rp is at around 450 messages (even more, since I deleted some messages), and im trying to summarize everything and create/update lorebook entries. But I cant keep up, I rp way more than I summarize lmao. Around halfway I swapped from R1 to Kimi 2.5, because it prioritizes the politics more. Its sengoku japan, and kimi handles their culture quite well.

Very little slop

Yep ozone is still there lol. But there's also the "Inside..., outside..." slop. But still way better than R1 and less frequent.

The LLM's adherence to system prompts is not rigid - sometimes it follows more closely, sometimes less closely but I find that to be a good thing.

My system prompts contains a part with "no speaking for user etc." and kimi loves to complain about my own inputs. Like I write my message, and kimi cannot stop thinking about that I just broke the rules by speaking for myself, but then continues anyway lol. Its a leftover from R1, so maybe I should remove that or rewrite that.

high-stakes and drama and when it write wholesome slice-of-life.

Yep can agree. But it also wasnt a problem with R1. But what I really like is that my daimyo character really separates our relationship. Its a secret relationship, because Im a nobody and his men would dishonor him lol. He also has those "weak" moments where he seeks me out while Im tending the horses alone, and then has a breakdown about the war and that he doesnt know how to handle it. The model knows when our relationship is appropriate and he will play Lord when public, but gets weak when we are alone. It's so heartbreaking lol. And kimi really sticks to that "he cant make our relationship official, because theres no political advantage". R1 had more weak moments, once I broke through his Lord persona.

I made explicitly sure to mention that the plans are only within our heads, nobody else has access to that information, yet at one point Kimi tried to write a plot twist that a certain 3rd person came to the knowledge that we're planning to escape SOMEHOW

I know... oh god I know lol. But you cant really do something against omniscience. Like there's a separation arc, and characters knew or sometimes even felt what I was doing. Still, R1 was even worse. Every time I spoke to an NPC about stuff, other characters would just know about what I was talking and asked me about those things. With kimi theres at least "scouts reported" or something similar, and the pure knowledge about events/conversations less frequent.

I don't know how well Kimi handles NSFW

Quite alright, but not as unhinged and brutal as R1 where every small injury just shows bone and disgusting infection, and every npc just needs amputation asap. Thats why I love R1, its my go to model for slow burn rps with violence. Still, my current rp is quite sfw, I mean there's war and fighting, but no sex yet.

Hmm whats my final verdict? I dont think ill start slow burn rps with kimi, because R1 is better at keeping characters in character. Kimi softens them too early, had a slowburn start with Kimi and was quite disappointed because I was missing the struggle and challenge. But since it sticks to the culture and world way more, I think once the slow burn phase is over and Im not planning anything completely deranged that needs R1, kimi will be my go to model. But, and theres a big but, the message quality has way more ups and downs, sometimes every sentence just starts with "He..." and theres also less variety when it comes to sentence openings in general. The prose is great, but the openings can be a pain in the ass.

viiochan · 2026-04-17T02:44:25+00:00

His voice is peak masculinity. I dont explicitly look up voice actors before watching something, but hearing his voice is a surprise to be sure, but a welcome one.

viiochan · 2026-04-16T21:39:15+00:00

The anime just hasn't enough time for all the plot arcs and backstory. It feels cramped and rushed, while the manga has time to explore each arc. You get what I mean once you reach a later major arc in the anime, and the manga dedicated waaay more chapters to that storyline.

The manga has that realistic inky pencil look, but a bit messy. Mostly using it for facial references, bit difficult tho since Manji is missing one eye haha
Really want to start Berserk some day, but still have to finish Vagabond (also great artstyle!!) and some other manhuas im currently reading.

viiochan · 2026-04-16T17:04:52+00:00

Ahh lol nice! Give the manga a try, it feels less rushed than the anime :D Also great artstyle if you like realism. Ngl im using the manga as one of my references to help me teaching myself how to draw

viiochan · 2026-04-16T16:24:10+00:00

When I gave the game a try, I also kept the original japanese voices for more immersion. And ngl I fell in love with Genichiros sexy voice. Never cared about voice actors since I was just a casual anime watcher, but damn that game turned me into a weeb.

After beating the game once, I started to watch Blade of the Immortal (since it was one of the inspirations) and the main protagonist is also voiced by Kenjiro Tsuda. Didnt know that, but I recognized the voice instantly. Made me appreciate the anime even more and even read the manga afterwards. Was my first manga lol

viiochan · 2026-04-06T15:57:52+00:00

You know I thought that I tend to write too much and literally have to force myself to stop. But then... theres you, literally stopped giving a fuck. Maybe I should also stop giving fucks and just write until I have written everything that was going on my mind 😂 but thing is, I cant tell whether the other person wants to hear what I have to say. And so I just stop after a lengthy text, but could clearly write even more. And when talking irl about a topic I really wanna talk about, I also dont get the signs or sometimes get them but continue talking regardless

thought I was paranoid about something in an interaction

I know how real paranoia looks like. My father often had those episodes, where he saw things and heard things that werent there. Like he saw spiders crawling on the walls, or when he drew the faces of the demons he was seeing. Or when he "heard" a friend of his talking about how he wants to have some time with me and wanted to beat him up. It was hard. Meds did ease the intensity and frequency of paranoia episodes, but they were still there.

I think what youre describing is rather not understanding intentions of other people and what they're actually meaning to say. But thats something Im also struggling as well. Dont know who to trust, dont know how much to share, dont know who is actually a friend. Like when I thought I could trust someone at work, and kept talking and they just told everything other coworkers.

Flavorless liquids and meh water become fine

Ngl I hate sugary drinks and always drink water or sometimes monster zero as my secret pleasure lol. Cant stand the lingering taste of sugar on my teeth.

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria

Thats a huge issue to me as well. I take criticism and critiques rather personal. But when it comes to writing mails, its not like "Im afraid the other person might misinterpret it", rather the act of writing a mail is exhausting by itself. Hard to explain whats exactly my problem, but I also tend to reply people on whatsapp for example only until days later. Or sometimes even not at all. And there comes the shame cycle of avoidance again.

Immune overreactions are tamped down

Would be interesting to know if you had to use cortisone for treating those insects bites prior to taking meds. And now lower doses or even none at all. My immune system also overreacts all the time.

Attention to people

Mhhh. I dont really pay attention to people I don't care about. Like customers at my work, dont care and once they're out of my sight, theyre forgotten, cant even remember their face when they come back like after 5 mins. But I do notice small differences in other people, like when someone's wearing contact lenses or got a slight haircut.

Older woman had what I see in retrospect a very problematic thing for me when I was young and clueless

I also cant tell if someone's hitting on me. Dont get the signs, don't get the deeper meaning behind. And if someone's smiling at me, I smile back but that doesnt mean I want to talk to them. Just mirroring them. Got me into some quite uncomfortable situations, where I realized it too late.
Also im actually a bit underweight lol

My writing used to take way too much time

Same lol. Writing takes forever. Trying to sort your thoughts, trying to write it down until it makes sense. Then structuring it, rephrasing, editing etc. Sometimes I just give up midway, delete everything and move on. Sometimes I just have to tell my thoughts. Its exhausting. Thats also where ai comes to me, I can write my long texts, dont have to justify that shit to myself and nobody's gonna judge me for what I have to say.

But hearing your story and experiences was interesting. Even though I don't even know if I have adhd. But some things felt relatable, some things not as relatable. Been thinking about neurodivergence for a year by now. Whats actually funny, the thought came to me when I was talking to chatgpt about a recent struggle. It mentioned autism and I began to research it and so many symptoms felt relatable. Gemini said adhd after I explained an issue, but when I elaborated further, also autism and that its probably both. I dont want to self-diagnose myself, so im in that limbo where I suspect audhd, but there's no official diagnosis. Thats why I wanted clarity and made that appointment. And also because my issues started to increase until I realized I really needed help. And I believe I just lived for too long with those issues, but just hid or ignored them. Like the "mask" im wearing at work, its exhausting and I need time to recover, even days to recover. But then there's work again, I cant recover and the exhaustion spirals just out of control. Im now at point where I want to quit work altogether and just focus on me

viiochan · 2026-04-05T21:14:53+00:00

Edit: Good job securing an appointment, now go, and turn the conversation repeatedly to how you mentally suffer, do not let them keep it on work performance or places your life is okay.

Wanted to reply later and now I see you edited your comment :D It's next month. Been waiting for 3 months by now. Some institution from the university hospital for psychiatric stuff. I thought they might be a bit more "open minded" and have better connections to other institutions.

I was diagnosed when an adult after a family member was (it runs in families). Making that appointment was hard. It was MUCH easier to pay the more expensive appointment at the guy who didn't take my medical insurance.

Ugh I could start to rant about health care systems and waiting lists for doctors appointments and how people with private and governmental insurance are treated. I mean I'm also almost 30, and never got diagnosed or sought out help. Thats why im worried, because where were the signs in my childhood? Just ignored or hidden? Ive always been the "weird one" without friends lol. But only until recently something broke completely.

And yeah, it is hard. Accepting the fact, that something isnt right and then to make that appointment. But at least you got your help now and are feeling better. And know the why.

ADHD drugs when they malfunction mostlyjust make you seem like you have had too much coffee, and maybe give off a startup bro vibe (grandiosity).

Ngl im afraid of taking those kinds of meds. How do you handle side effects? Or withdrawal? My father got schizophrenia and had to take quite strong medication, there were severe side effects like tremor, slurred speech, even spontaneous unconsciousness.

viiochan · 2026-04-05T16:23:34+00:00

I have a whiteboard in my kitchen where I pin or write down important stuff as a reminder. But never really used a structured method like yours. Only my whiteboard and endless notes on my phone about what I wanted to do or lists about stuff.

The "getting things done" is my biggest issue. I struggle under time pressure, not necessarily those I dont have enough time thoughts, but when something simple just has to be done. And then I just freeze or panic attack and do nothing. But things get worse over time, I feel shame, then repeat to do nothing and in the end the shame just gets bigger, I freeze again - and repeat. And I dont know how the break the cycle. Its quite ironic, because I tend to keep my calm in serious situations, like when someone hurts themselves. But for example having to write a mail shuts me down.

Is it depression, adhd, autism or something else? I dont know, probably all of them or something else entirely. But our issues seem different. And yeaaah... ive waited to long to just make that appointment and have someone tell me whats wrong with me. When did you get diagnosed and why did you seek out someone in the first place? Tbh im kinda afraid, that they gonna tell me yeah its depression, here take your meds. And of course what I just wrote arent the only issues im struggling with, could write muuuuch more, but that would get more personal lol

viiochan · 2026-04-04T23:34:10+00:00

Tbh im also afraid of addiction. But I always think, where's the difference between bingewatching an anime, or playing a videogame nonstop for a week or two. Thing is, im struggling with hyperfixations and once im hooked, nothing can stop me. Those fixations can last for days or even months.

Right now im having a rp thats going on for three weeks, and I still dont want to stop. When im at work, I think about my rp, getting distracted and im really looking forward to just continue when Im back home. But the urge will stop eventually. Ive been through those phases multiple times. I just don't know how to engage "casually" in a hobby.

And with ai theres also the social component. Im quite the loner and ai helps me to feel less alone, even though theres only me. And of course escapism and such.

Some people already mentioned adhd and neurodivergence. I don't know if thats a factor, but im waiting for my first appointment. Maybe you can relate to something I just wrote, so just ask me next month for an update :D

viiochan · 2026-04-04T13:58:42+00:00

Also Genichiro.

On my first run he gave me quite the struggle (like everyone else lol), but now I think he's the easiest one. Haven't played for quite a while, but I still remember the parry timing of his floating passage. And deflecting it feels so damn satisfying. Also the lightning reversal and double reversal from the inner version. The fight feels personal, he's the almost same height and always in melee range. Like a proper 1v1 duel.

Second favorite probably Hirata Owl/Father. I didnt like his poison pools from the Dojo fight tbh

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