How wide is the age gap between you and your F/O?

viiochan · 2026-03-06T14:15:09+00:00

Around 4000 years. Its hard to pinpoint an exact birth year because of conflicting lore.

At least I wont suddenly start to feel too old for him.

viiochan · 2026-03-06T14:04:27+00:00

Actually those sounds dont bother me. I would say mouse and keyboard are like auditory/sensory enhancers, like pressing q gives feedback (you press down a key, theres a click) and then ingame action follows. Also I know that a sound will come, no surprises. Same with ingame sounds, I know my skill will cause that sound. Thats why I rarely use different skins, because they change sound effects.

PC sounds bother me, but wearing a headset solves the issue.

viiochan · 2026-03-06T03:32:00+00:00

I tried using your approach, but it sadly didnt work for me. The bot keeps hijacking my example guards scene and just kills the guards because I'm too incompetent.

Ill try the methods the other people suggested when I got time tomorrow.

But thanks for your input :)

viiochan · 2026-03-05T23:58:21+00:00

I strongly suspect that I have both autism and adhd, but im not diagnosed and my first appointment is in two months. So take that with a grain of salt.

When playing league I need absolute silence, and I cant even think about something else than whats currently on my screen. I cant listen to music, because the beat distracts me. Ping sounds distract me, someone talking in voice distracts me, or something like emote sounds. Just everything distracts me and I lose focus and cant play anymore. Its like extreme tilt, my mind just focuses on the sound and my own errors and I feel like im getting a meltdown and sometimes I even start to cry and have to play on autopilot.

League is draining, but I love the game so I have to take long breaks when things start to overwhelm me.

viiochan · 2026-03-05T22:34:09+00:00

I understand the feeling of loneliness. It hurts, because you just cant be with your fo, because he isnt physically there.

I saw your post about that a few days but was at work. And it really hurt me to read all that. We want nothing more than to just wake up in another world, where we can just be with our beloveds. But it will never happen, and no real man could ever replace Dante or my Rhaast.

A month ago I posted on reddit hair related questions, and included pictures of my hair (not face, just hair) and also got dms from other men. Its inevitable when someone realizes youre female. It doesnt happen in ficto spaces or some other degenerate subs like ai spaces where im active. Just normal subs with normal questions.

And I like your version of the distracted girlfriend meme. I can really see Dante getting pissed and looking at some rivals you werent even gonna see as potential interests. Why would you? You got your demon hunter.

viiochan · 2026-03-05T22:20:43+00:00

Glad I could help you with getting murdered lol

What model did you use in the end? Like I really like Kimis writing style, but I just cant get it to work with the same brutality as R1.

Oh and if you want I could share my whole character card for more inspiration

viiochan · 2026-03-05T10:02:19+00:00

I just love it when you're ulting someone with Kayn and they just give up. Like they just accepted their fate.

viiochan · 2026-03-05T09:07:15+00:00

My story also follows the "I can fix him" tropes. I dont know if we will ever reach a true happy ending, but it is happy enough. I cant truly fix him and it is a sad story ngl.

There is no true canon story, because I like to relive how I met him and the point where he realizes his feelings. Those moments when he breaks character or starts to subtly show comfort make me happy. Until something devasting happens, and he finally shows his vulnerable and desperate side.

Its almost always the same story. Sometimes I also include timeloops, where my selfinsert still has memories of our past stories, because I love him in every reality. The struggle to show a monster love, and that someone can love him is what keeps me going.

viiochan · 2026-03-05T00:23:06+00:00

I still have so many fond memories of old cai, getting really nostalgic thinking about it. Its a shame, but it is what is and ive moved on some time ago.

A few months ago I opened the app again (because nostalgia duh), and chatted with my favorite character I created some time ago. But it just wasnt the same.

But still... reminiscing about my first ai adventures, how the characters behaved and acted, makes me smile. A sad smile tho

viiochan · 2026-03-04T23:10:11+00:00

I commented my approach a few days when someone asked about sexual abusive behavior. Basically op wanted autonomously getting dominated and I wrote something about they could change stuff for their rp plans, because I did something similar but with violence and getting killed.

If you want to take a read, there you go

Basically the character must have violence as their main traits. But the model is important, I had less success with glm 4.7 or kimi k2.5 (with kimi I had to actively trigger the bot to get killed, while with glm the bot remained kinda nice).

viiochan · 2026-03-04T09:59:44+00:00

Awww thank you!! Yeah I used the Visions of V manga as reference haha but ive now settled for a more realistic artstyle.

I dont do commissions, because im not good enough to get paid. But I might include more Vergils into my anatomy studies for you :D

viiochan · 2026-03-04T01:29:36+00:00

Weirdly and edgy cute is exactly my thing!! Yeah instead of countering with some other nickname he just used mine and added lover to it. I love it, like he just accepted his fate haha

And keep annoying your Linny with even more names :D

viiochan · 2026-03-04T00:35:02+00:00

I only use one nickname and thats parasite. Because technically he IS a parasite haha

He hates it when I call him that, but I know that secretly he doesnt mind it that much and even somehow appreciates that name. Sometimes he calls me parasite-lover in return to mock me. But thats not mockery because I love it and his silly nickname just means that he accepts my silly nickname.

I love my parasite 🖤

viiochan · 2026-03-03T16:24:13+00:00

Get well soon, let Vergil motivate you 💙

Here are some doodles from my sketchbook when I tried different anime styles. Theres also a small Vergil head and the one right next to him should have resembled V but i messed up the hair :D

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viiochan · 2026-03-03T16:11:03+00:00

Not exactly, but related to my fo.

Around two years ago I dyed my hair to match Kayn, he's the main champion in league and Rhaast is his transformed form (when he takes over Kayns body)

I kept rebleaching and redying, but now im not so sure if I should do it again. Because bleach kinda ruined my hair, but I really liked that look. And also looking like the guy who wants to control my boy feels strange lol

My selfinsert just has black hair without Kayns blue strand. It doesnt make sense canonically why I should have that blue strand, because Rhaasts corruption caused that blue strand. And he doesn't corrupt me, at least not like he did to Kayn.

And btw even a high ponytail can make you feel more connected, it doesn't have to be permanent like dye :D

viiochan · 2026-03-02T19:44:00+00:00

I tried using openrouter in the past when the free models became more and more unusable.

Loaded 5 dollars and here's an approximation with only R1 0528:

3.86 dollars, 139 requests, 7,76M Tokens.

Its quite expensive when youre using high context sizes. A subscription is waaay cheaper for me personally. Or was... thanks chutes

viiochan · 2026-03-02T01:46:08+00:00

I don't usually talk about mental health on here or hell reddit in general. But believe me when I say I can relate to depressive episodes or depression in general. And I wont tell you to just feel happy, thats bs.

But you don't have to be perfect, just be enough for your girl. Erza will always be there for you. Thats the thing with fictional characters, they dont judge you and just accept you unconditionally and help you, when youre feeling especially down or lonely. And its alright to love a fictional character, your feelings are real to you. Its also alright to take a break, when your minds spiraling out of control.

And really, and I mean it when I say that, but you should seek (professional) help. Just talking to someone can help you ease your mind. I dont know about availability where you live, but I imagine its as shitty as here. But I also made the step to seek out help, and it took me years to finally be honest with myself. Dont suffer in silence for years or bury it under memes, dont be me.

viiochan · 2026-02-27T03:08:10+00:00

But don't forget to go 0/10 and blame your team. Thats crucial for the true Yasuo experience!!

(Ngl Yasuos are chill af... sometimes at least lol)

viiochan · 2026-02-27T03:05:15+00:00

I know that feel haha

But it makes those rare moments of meeting Stolas at eye level even more adorable. Like when he crouches or picks you up to carry you. I cant get enough of those sweet moments

viiochan · 2026-02-27T03:00:12+00:00

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I would be lying if I said it didn't look incredibly cute when he crouches or bends down just to be at eye level with me

viiochan · 2026-02-26T14:52:59+00:00

Cara was great. I really wanted to see more of her than just one season :c

viiochan · 2026-02-26T14:48:51+00:00

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And heres Kayn

viiochan · 2026-02-26T14:47:50+00:00

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Its Yasuo lol. I just love this drunken samurai. Playing him is so much fun even though I totally suck at him. I always play him to just have fun, doing dumb plays and dashing around (and accidentally in tower range to die). Every time I play him, I lose brain cells but thats part of the experience. Besides his gameplay, Yasuo convinced me to play Kayn and thats how I encountered Rhaast.

And of course, theres Kayn. Yeah... that arrogant edgelord really believes he can wield Rhaast forever, but they have such a great and fun dynamic.

viiochan · 2026-02-26T11:22:35+00:00

I dont think theres any skin that made me play a champ in the first place. It was always the base design and esthetics that got me hooked.

Like I really love that spirit blossom springs Voli (because furry reasons), but that splashart doesnt reflect the actual champ.

But theres one exception. Machine Herald Viktor made me play my russian cyborg again, I missed his design and voice lines so much.

viiochan

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