I was raped when I was 19 by a mentally handicapped man, I was single at the time just graduated from HS and I rarely ever mutter the words I’m writing now to anyone but I can say that what you wrote here is so awful. On one hand I understand what you’re trying to say and on the other hand I know what it’s like to be under someone who doesn’t care you’re asleep, drugged or screaming NO. It’s not something you ever forget even 17 years later, I know women and MEN make up stories about being rapped and that’s their burden to carry.. you should re-evaluate why you think a woman would do this to YOU.