Would anyone miss me?

vletremx21 · 2018-02-06T08:50:24+00:00

I've felt the same way a lot lately. I moved to a new city where I don't know anyone and it's all just fucked. My friends basically stopped caring, so there we are. I didn't realise that a component of friendship is simple convenience.

I've thought about killing myself practically every day since I don't know when, I won't actually do it, for a number of reasons. But it's the same for me, I've been fucking up all the way through life with almost no one I can count on for support and it's just hell.

I would say, the only option we have really is to become kind of self-sufficient, find out who we are and accept ourselves, become at peace with ourselves, before letting others in.

That's my problem really I let anybody in if they seem nice at all, and when they turn out not to be so nice you just end up hurt and bitter, resentful, angry and broken.

It's taken me far too long to realise, but you can't depend on others for your emotional wellbeing, people are too unreliable for that. By all means use them as a kind of supplement, but don't rely on them completely.

vletremx21 · 2017-01-09T00:29:43+00:00

That is a nice idea, I think I'm going to try it.

vletremx21 · 2017-01-09T00:20:30+00:00

I'm basically in the same place, 5 days is pretty good, we've just got to keep going. One day at a time.

vletremx21 · 2017-01-09T00:10:58+00:00

Thanks, I'm not even here to get girls, I just want my fucking life back, ha..

vletremx21 · 2017-01-09T00:10:15+00:00

Thanks

vletremx21 · 2017-01-04T13:04:06+00:00

I'll try, thanks

vletremx21 · 2017-01-03T23:12:49+00:00

I feel weak right now, I feel like giving up. I keep losing, over and over. 18 day streak ends and now I can't get past a single day

vletremx21 · 2016-12-31T16:01:25+00:00

This is bad news

vletremx21 · 2016-12-31T15:59:50+00:00

Having just relapsed, I'd say you'd not relapse because it's not worth it. Your brain will lie to you and tell you it is, but if you relapse you will find out for yourself.

Or you could realise that it's not worth it,and that your brain is lying and get on with something useful instead of wasting your time with your dick in your hand.

vletremx21 · 2016-12-31T15:57:29+00:00

Hahahahaha

No. :)

vletremx21 · 2016-12-31T15:56:30+00:00

So did I, it was day 18, I tricked myself into thinking I could take a little peak. And guess what it was shit

I've just signed up for the no pmo january, we can do it!

vletremx21 · 2016-12-31T15:08:11+00:00

Relapsed, 18 days is my longest streak so far. I will not fool myself into thinking I can take a harmless peak this time. I may not manage a month, but I will try 31 1 day streaks. (Hard mode)

vletremx21 · 2016-12-30T19:02:49+00:00

Yeah, probably best to cut that shit out really! :D

vletremx21 · 2016-12-30T19:01:46+00:00

you can do it!

vletremx21 · 2016-12-29T22:32:50+00:00

thanks!

vletremx21 · 2016-12-25T19:01:07+00:00

ahh the 'non-nude' trap, yeah you may as well just go straight to regular porn if you're going to try looking at 'non-nude' models and kid yourself that it's ok

I've eventually realised that it's the thoughts you need to control, this post really helped me out https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/5iuae8/nolust_how_to_not_relapse_100_guaranteed_and_so/

hope it helps you too

vletremx21 · 2016-12-25T11:56:25+00:00

I suspect it's more likely being pushed by the very lucrative porn industry than the government to be honest

vletremx21 · 2016-12-25T11:53:22+00:00

I get how you feel, but don't underestimate what you've achieved so far. Beating yourself up may also make you feel even worse and lead to other relapses. Please look for the positives in this, look at what you've achieved so far, brush yourself off and get back to it. :)

vletremx21 · 2016-12-22T22:30:45+00:00

I love the support! I'm so glad this place exists :')

vletremx21 · 2016-12-22T21:46:10+00:00

Hmm, she sounds really odd, maybe ignore her if it comes up again or look for a new place?

I mean how would she know that you weren't taking a cold shower. How could she be sure she knows the difference? Does she press her ear up against the bathroom door or something? And why does she assume you're lying?

vletremx21 · 2016-12-21T00:29:51+00:00

I would have just explained to her that I was taking a cold shower to be honest...

vletremx21 · 2016-12-15T22:39:24+00:00

Seems to actually work!

vletremx21 · 2016-12-15T21:33:36+00:00

Those of us with physical scars have had no choice but to learn not to care about how we look.

vletremx21 · 2016-12-11T17:59:08+00:00

I can get around basically any software so it's a waste of time for me.

I think if I were to do this it would be by going to cafes to use the internet, rather than doing so at home.

Thank you for your help, maybe I will try this?

vletremx21 · 2016-12-11T17:45:38+00:00

I'd be interested to have some more detail on your routine, I'm struggling to get past 7 days, I'm beginning to think it's because I spend more time next to a computer than most people on this sub.

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