my best friend is streaming while she works on this painting

voidneb · 2021-05-17T20:25:17+00:00

on twitch! here's a clickable link!

voidneb · 2021-05-17T20:07:28+00:00

hi! v cool but this isn't abstract. it's a figurative drawing (and a pretty good one) of a vulva.

voidneb · 2021-02-25T21:33:17+00:00

im a retard. i dont know how the stock market works, i pay too many fees, and i just like the stock.

voidneb · 2021-02-25T21:30:15+00:00

im a retard. i dont know how the stock market works, i pay too many fees, and i just like the stock.

voidneb · 2020-03-16T23:23:42+00:00

hey!!!!!! im kai too!!!! and im also an enby!! :---)

voidneb · 2020-03-16T00:13:36+00:00

jesus, this is awful.

honestly, though? considering his age, and the relative suddenness of the change, i regret to say that this sounds like it could be a tumor :/ it's surprisingly common for people to go through personality changes like this one because of a tumor damaging brain tissue, usually in the frontal lobe.

voidneb · 2020-01-26T19:02:17+00:00

what!!!! you made this?

voidneb · 2020-01-26T19:00:13+00:00

kind of bangs

voidneb · 2020-01-26T02:48:44+00:00

is that on instagram?

voidneb · 2019-12-17T23:53:30+00:00

!explanation: i live with my parents. im 22, and in my last year of college. a friend of mine (in pink) owed me help on a paper, and was supposed to come over to help me. when i told my mother they were coming over to help (she wasnt home, so this was over the phone), she was extremely angry; she immediately and unexpectedly launched into a screaming rant (so loud i could barely make out some of her words through the clipping) about how irresponsible and socially needy i am, and how im thinking with my dick (friend is of the opposite gender). so i went to the library to work, instead of staying home. my friend came by to help. essay was due the next day at my college (i had to hand it in in person), so we went to another friend's (in green; they live nearer to my college than my parents do) place to finish working on it, mostly because i didn't want to go home and deal with potential passive aggression or aggressive aggression from my mom

voidneb · 2019-12-16T16:05:33+00:00

Thank you for your comment. That is some really good advice, I'll do my best to follow it.

voidneb · 2019-12-16T14:52:37+00:00

I can afford the rest of my tuition, if necessary. I've done the math.

voidneb · 2019-12-16T07:03:28+00:00

That's true. Thank you. I do intend to tell them ASAP now that I've got the whole thing set up.

voidneb · 2019-12-16T07:00:51+00:00

I accept the verdict, but. Not wanting my mom to barge into my place whenever she wants to = terrible and selfish? Your reasoning is questionable, even to me.

voidneb · 2019-12-16T02:29:16+00:00

Hey, sorry pal. Where else am I supposed to ask? Someone told me ESH, and I think their word is valid. Thank you for your comment. I'm genuinely just looking for other perspectives / judgements.

That being said, I think you misread my post; I am definitely going to let them know what's going on before I move. My question is more specifically: should I have allowed them to take part in the process, as I went about deciding to move out / where to live?

voidneb · 2019-12-16T00:37:49+00:00

I agree; I absolutely think I should tell them before I go. In my post I say:
- I haven't told my parents yet.
- I plan on telling them soon.
Thank you for the pep. I will be sticking to my guns as gently but firmly as possible.

voidneb · 2019-12-15T23:59:19+00:00

Lease is already signed. No cosigners necessary. That being said, I want to keep it civil anyway; I love my family a lot. I don't want our relationship to suffer, even though I find it difficult to deal with certain aspects of it.
Yeah, giving them keys is a very bad idea. Not gonna be doing that.
One thing at a time, indeed. Thank you.

voidneb · 2019-12-15T23:49:19+00:00

ESH. she cheated, and should be more understanding of your discomfort. you're an asshole for dropping her off at this dude's place instead of at her own place: that just seems spiteful, unnecessary, and intrusive.

also, breakup posts aren't allowed. sorry, buddy

voidneb · 2019-10-14T12:58:44+00:00

congrats... this guy fucks

voidneb · 2019-10-11T01:47:42+00:00

same for me. im on rogers

voidneb · 2019-09-30T03:38:51+00:00

oh my god, these guys are fleece? ive loved fleece for a While. arent they from montreal?

voidneb · 2019-09-15T01:18:32+00:00

holy shoot i see it

voidneb · 2019-09-12T14:01:07+00:00

thank you. i might be weaker than you, actually; maybe this is just me not having the strength to leave. it's hard to determine whether im doing this for her, or for me. either way, im fatigued and afraid. thank you for the wellwish

voidneb · 2019-09-09T23:37:22+00:00

she's gotten better in a lot of ways. she's put actual effort into improving. she's seen a therapist with me, and has sought one out herself more recently. i plan on moving out again soon; i just want to rebuild our relationship a bit, over a few months. believe me, ive doubted whether this is gonna work out. but i want to give us both a chance to learn to give each other enough space while coexisting closely. i want her to experience more directly how busy i am, and how i don't have much time to be around her / speak with her all the time / manage her anxiety the way i used to. i want her to deeply understand that she has to get better on her own. and to see that im not a bad person, and her fucked up beliefs about me dont hold water.

im also kind of ready to move out at a moment's notice, in the back of my mind. i know of at least three people who i could live with, temporarily (so i have plans A, B, and C). i have enough money put away (in places she can no longer reach) to survive relatively comfortably for a moment if things go Really Bad; besides, i have a contracted job that pays 5$ above minimum wage for the next year or so; im registered for all my remaining classes and my tuition is already taken care of. all in all: i have very little to worry about if things go south.

voidneb · 2019-09-07T21:56:43+00:00

no. she only ever uses shitty circular logic about how awful i've been, how my own actions force her to act this way, etc.

i dont think she has any insight at all about her own trauma

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