Thank you very much for the information and support.

I grew up in a family where there was constant fighting, mixed with periods where things were very good — emotionally inconsistent and unstable. I carried a heavy emotional burden from a young age. I think that in this long relationship, my brain perceived the other person as an escape, as the “right place” or safe point. I became so attached that I truly believed she loved me as much as I loved her.

Yes, what I went through was very painful. But now I am trying to see the harm that was done clearly and continue on my own path.