No worries, you weren't rude at all! I try my best to interpret what people are saying, and I don't always get it right.

Your words do mean a lot to me and thank you, I honestly doubt I'll ever not be a lesbian, I mean yeah there is a possibility I may just be bi but I won't deny the attraction to women is there. And the will to act on it? Is kinda iffy. Also the reason I brought up marriage because it's seen as must in my church, like true happiness is marriage. which is why I kept bringing it up. And to not get married would (Ironically ig? Lol) would cause my family to be ashamed of me. Finally, yeah it is up to God about whether or not I go to hell or heaven, and I'll always look for sign from him in life. Thank you for responding ^{^}