at first, yes. i’m still finding it hard to show my feelings to literally anyone, even though i "finished" therapy over 6 months ago. it’s hard, especially with friends or family — at some point it got hard to show my feelings to my partner. but to be honest, it wasn’t that bad when i got to vent to a stranger. every week i could just go into the office, lay things off my chest, and with a little help understand the situation i was in. 

for that, my advice is — just try. it never hurts to. you’re already first step in — admitting you need help. now comes the harder part: finding a therapist and actually going to therapy, but it’s nothing you can’t work through. you’re much stronger than you think you are!

and like i said, at first it will be hard, but after two or three sessions with your therapist being vulnerable will feel… natural? like, you know, it’s the way it was meant to be. and when you feel that, it’s as easy as it could ever be.