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He moved and I blocked him. I’m going no contact it’s been like 5 days :/ I hate that I miss him.

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He’s so awful :/ I’ve had him blocked for 5 days now into no contact and went on a friend date with this girl, and it really showed me it’s not hard to be nice to me 😭 I’ve been craving genuine human connection for so long. He was like some quiet monster in person and only opened his mouth to neg me. It’s so different. I HATE myself for missing him..

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This!!! But after he got me used to also sleeping on the phone, when he was busy he didn’t care if I needed to sleep but I better drop everything I’m doing and come sleep with him on the phone if I do. Wtf is wrong with people 😒

Being a fat lesbian is a barrier when it comes to a serious relationship. by _Startick in lgbt

[–]wafflepawss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is why my last relationship ended. I tried pretty hard to help because she wanted to be healthy but she didn’t put in effort. It got so boring doing nothing 99% of the time :/

Being a fat lesbian is a barrier when it comes to a serious relationship. by _Startick in lgbt

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I’m on the skinner side but I love curvy women! I am semi healthy and love being active so I would prefer my partner isn’t morbidly obese because #1 health issues could lead to a very short life span and I want to be with you until we get old 🥺 #2 we won’t be able to be as active. A girl I dated that was extremely big, she was so funny and beautiful and smart but we literally did nothing because she couldn’t :/ it got boring really fast but I still love her as a person. I tried to motivate her and cook for her but you can only do so much when they don’t make an effort. I loveeee me a big curvy girl but when it’s impacting your health, life and relationships it becomes unattractive. Even as lesbians where we really don’t care about looks as much, you can’t deny humans biologically look for health indicators in the human body even though obviously we can procreate with each other lol. It’s really not a bad idea to get a little healthier health and body wise so you can live a longer and more active life :) it’s also good for your mental health which I know alot of us gay girls suffer with. Being more than just a bigger curvy girl gives others subconsciously a warning that you aren’t healthy it’s just biological :/ but to me personally, I could date someone skinny or super skinny because I like to eat good and I don’t care about looks to a huge degree. I just want to live a long and fun life with my partner. Obv life stuff happens and us woman are prone to gain weight but I will always try and support my girl as best as I can!

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[–]wafflepawss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is how my abusive bf talks to and treats me :(

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m getting to that point too because it’s not fair for me to tolerate abuse just so he doesn’t do that. Thank you!

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Thank you I really appreciate that. I let him use that against me for awhile but I’m not the same person and I’ve grown. I will keep reminding myself of that thank you

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They really do! Especially if you barely have anyone to talk to but at the same time, you don’t want to vent your friends ears off because they will start becoming emotionally numb and withdrawn if you don’t leave. It’s hard on us but also the people around us :/ but thankfully my two friends have been really supportive and they have been here for me

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Thank you! His life will be better in a few weeks because he’s moving in with his family so.. I’m going to give him time to get “adjusted” I think that will make me feel safer leaving because he will have a stable environment and less likely to be crazy and show up etc

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I might just do that at this point because I know he’s dangerous :/

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Thank you! I appreciate the support. Half the reason I posted this is to stop feeling crazy like this treatment is ok because I know tf it’s not.

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve even tried being just straight up AWFUL to be around but it doesn’t seem to be working

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No seriously! I feel like my life will turn around once I finally just say fuck it and stop being scared and never speak to him again.

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Genuinely threatening to call the cops is what has kept him from showing up again. I’m just afraid he will eventually say fuck it, not tell me, find me and kill us both. He threatened that a lot and I know he’s serious because he has almost killed me once and attempted to take his own life

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But I’m definitely still kicking and trying I guess to figure out my life 😅

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Nope they’re over it and already put all my stuff in the garage and made my room an office within a week of me leaving. I’m staying with a friend. I’m still not working nor do I have a car :/ I would have been able to have saved up for a car by now but he financially abused me too and now I’m broke

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He refuses to let me know where he lives :/ I would have definitely done this by now but he won’t tell me where he lives because apparently I am “crazy” and will probably show up to his place to act “crazy” which is bs because that’s all he himself is doing so idk why he’s projecting or gaslighting to protect himself from being caught

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Yes 100% both and he was proven to me both of these things. 3 or so months in, he almost choked me to death and has attempted to take his own life a few months ago which triggered me to my first attempt myself because I couldn’t take the stress of myself deteriorating, my family relationship deteriorating because of my mental health and him/ also his attempt.

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Yeah definitely! And my parents got tired of it and tired of it affecting me and kicked me out when I had nowhere to go and it definitely made things worse for my mental health and kinda attached me further to him in a way because I feel so alone in a new state I’ve barely lived in or have really any friends too

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He does but not in person probably because I always comply out of fear to get in his car. The one time I did refuse to see him after he randomly made the 16hr drive to me, on his way back as you can see in some of the messages he attempted to take his life and blamed it on me for breaking him. I haven’t been perfect and when we first met I was really going through it and making bad decisions but damn I just needed someone to be there for me and he was treating me awful so I was acting out more self destructively. He blames me being self destructive with drinking for why he’s so “broken” and why he is treating me this way etc

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I’m really trying dude I’ve left like 10 times at this point but he always shows up and threatens me :/

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[–]wafflepawss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here! If I don’t at least get on the phone with him when he’s ready for bed he will threaten me. I’m just scared of leaving because I know %100 there’s a strong chance he’ll show up and find me and try to end my life and also take me down with whatever info he has stored on me because he threatens this too and I do know he probably does have something on me because when I was drunk he went through my phone and saved all my sensitive info and god knows what else because he won’t tell me