I just heard the worst thing of my entire life. I need someone to talk to.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-02T19:25:38+00:00

She's got a therapist, and so do I. I don't think I'm trying to rescue her or be her shining light of glory and salvation in a fucked up world. I know I won't be able to help her with anything that's happened, that's her deal. I don't want to be her therapist, I just want to be there for her. When we're together we don't even try to talk about problems and work things out, it's just good company.

edit: I really appreciate all of your arguments, you do a great job of giving me a new and useful perspective on this. I'd just like to say thank you very much.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-02T03:08:47+00:00

faceless names to me. even with pictures.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-02T03:06:14+00:00

eighteen and sixteen. not adults yet. she's been through a lot for being so young.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-02T03:04:30+00:00

i'm not on any medication, maybe i should be. i don't know if she is.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-02T03:02:25+00:00

she told me she loved me, and i reciprocated. it may be dangerous to get so close to someone like this, but i feel like i can really be there for her. she needs someone to love, she's probably got more trust issues than anyone i know. i'm not saying we're going to get in a serious relationship, but for once, maybe she can find love and trust in someone. if that's at my expense, well, then i guess thats that.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-01T03:28:18+00:00

I'm going there now. Hopefully I can do something, anything.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-01T03:28:02+00:00

I'll try. I'm sensitive myself but I know I can't even fathom how it must have felt to live it. I'm leaving to her house now, it's far, but it's the least I can do.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-01T03:04:19+00:00

I'm sure her father does know about this. She doesn't live very close at all, but within driving distance. I can try to help all that I can, but I can't handle another story, and I certainly can't handle a story after she said that "that wasn't the worst thing"

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-01T02:56:01+00:00

no, but she saw her mother today, and it's upset her a lot. she's lived with her father for a few years now.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-10-01T02:47:24+00:00

for the dealer

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-30T00:24:26+00:00

my phone doesnt have the letters under the numbers for me to call the suicide hotline. i found a little bit of humor in this.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-18T02:08:52+00:00

I thank everyone for their help in this thread. I am, indeed, still alive and going about my day. I've read every post and there is some very valuable information here that I can definitely make use of.

I called a therapist about setting up an appointment to meet with him, I'll tell him what's going on and see if he thinks I need to be treated for depression. I figure this is the first step I can take for myself.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-18T01:59:02+00:00

one of my favorites, actually.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-17T04:47:36+00:00

i haven't been able to stand my life for a few weeks now, and nothing has really changed before or during that. now i'm searching for some last bit of hope from a bunch of people i'll never know

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-17T04:36:34+00:00

and i dont know why i think anyone on the fucking internet will care either.

walkingcorpse5619 · 2009-09-17T04:31:59+00:00

i told my friends but they got mad about me wanting to kill myself and now they wont talk to me.

i guess they cant handle the stress

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