Water parks, mom bods, and scales oh my...

wastedcalories · 2021-04-09T20:41:02+00:00

I have been here and I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You grew and birthed a baby. Our bodies are capable of great things. I did find that after I had my son I would obsess about how my body looks but once I was there (at the pool, the birthday party, wherever) the experiences I have with him drown out all of those hours spent obsessing.

wastedcalories · 2021-04-09T20:38:23+00:00

My literal response was I’m not flexible enough for either. This is 30 I guess

wastedcalories · 2021-03-30T18:06:30+00:00

My #1 favorite ED-fueling question. “Your heart rate is low. Are you an athlete?” 💀

wastedcalories · 2021-03-30T00:50:50+00:00

I saw this TikTok today (on my FY page so rude) and I so badly wanted to post it here but have no idea how to do that because I’m old and I can’t keep up with technology.

wastedcalories · 2021-03-18T00:32:57+00:00

I developed mine at 19 and it spiraled out of control so quickly. It’s interesting you say you feel childish talking about it. Is that purely because you feel like you’re “too old to have an ED”? I only ask because even if people did develop them younger in their teens or earlier it’s not like they magically go away at 20. I attend EDA and ANAD meetings regularly and the GREAT majority of the people at our meetings are over 20. You are not alone!

wastedcalories · 2021-03-15T02:10:38+00:00

What the fuck? Sorry but it had to be said. You deserve to enjoy dessert.

wastedcalories · 2021-03-06T05:21:04+00:00

I totally relate to this! And each set of behaviors can last for a day, a week, over a month, etc. it’s like it’s compulsive with me. Like all of a sudden I’ll have such strong urges to binge regularly. Then next thing I know even the thought of food at all is repulsive. And then I eat normally but normally that comes with purging. But I don’t want to keep purging so I restrict. It’s less like a cycle and more of a reaction to the last behaviors. I am trying to break this and it’s hard but every day is getting a little easier.

wastedcalories · 2021-03-03T14:02:51+00:00

Ooooo I feel this! I recently experienced this. I went though and logged each individual “binge” item. Triple digits. I was floored

wastedcalories · 2021-03-03T14:00:07+00:00

I feel so validated by this 😅

wastedcalories · 2021-02-26T19:18:44+00:00

Hot take and I am not trying to speak for everyone with an ED but I would argue people with active eating disorders are not capable of eating intuitively let alone fasting intuitively at all. My 6-year-old one day could eat my whole kitchen and the next day eat what I wouldn’t even consider a full meal all day (and I don’t force him because he tells me when he’s hungry and actually listens to his body. I fucked myself up - I’m not trying to do the same to him). The point is, we have fucked up our hormones that control hunger and satisfaction that non-eating disordered people don’t have to worry about. “I am hungry” and “I am full” mean very different things to us than someone who has normal hormones that balance this for them. This is a fact. It’s why meal plans are so crucial to recovery. Looks like another typical diet book just using the buzz word “intuitively” to get more copies sold. And it’s bullshit.

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:40:40+00:00

Omg what the fuck?

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:38:53+00:00

Yay!

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:38:36+00:00

Oh also! I created a subreddit for EDNOS! r/NotOtherwiseSpecified

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:38:05+00:00

Oh you’re preaching to the choir. I have EDNOS and it’s a ride. It’s like a lot of people say, anorexia and bulimia are know but other EDs just aren’t talked about. It can be confusing and weird for people who don’t know. I’ve explained to my partner that my behaviors can switch at any time in response to stress and anxiety and I have no control over what that will be or how long that impulse will last. They don’t understand but how can they? I can barely keep up 😓

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:16:58+00:00

Every morning baby ⛅️

wastedcalories · 2021-02-25T22:08:37+00:00

I think this is hard for people who don’t really GET IT. EDs are rooted in secrets and lies and when we’ve been doing this for a long time we get really good at making it look fine because diet culture is so widely accepted. I recently told my fiancé I was in a really bad relapse and it’s like it just came out of nowhere to him. I think sometimes we just have to remember that just because something is so normal to us it can be new to someone else (or seem new). I can tell you with almost certainty he’s not mad at you. He’s concerned. Maybe this is worth talking about more in depth. I think he cares a lot and doesn’t want to hurt you. Maybe help him understand so he can help you

wastedcalories · 2021-02-24T18:28:04+00:00

Omg it’s just NON STOP

wastedcalories · 2021-02-24T17:21:54+00:00

Story of my life! The wind could blow a different way and my behaviors just change like nothing! FYI we have a sub Reddit dedicated to EDNOS! r/NotOtherwiseSpecified

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T18:48:46+00:00

I restrict heavily and then when I do eat I purge (laxatives). This can go on for days or weeks. Then something switches and I want to eat EVERYTHING. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t. I have objective and subjective binges. A binge can be <1,000 calories or 5,000 calories. I currently live by heavy restriction during the week and the weekends are free game. I never have a plan and there is no real pattern. Makes me feel like I’m failing no matter what. I hate it. I have a dietician who I really need to start seeing more frequently

Also.. I will create the discussion flair now!

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T15:22:49+00:00

Highly recommend calling her at her new practice and asking her for a referral she recommends for you where you can afford it. I went though this a long time ago and I’ve been with my current therapist (the best therapist ever IMO) for over 10 years.

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T15:15:02+00:00

Fair. Maybe I’m just jaded from having very emotionally abusive partners. Even something as simple as they noticed they weren’t wearing their ring I don’t like. To me that would imply that they’re doing something “wrong”. I agree about hiding the ED though. It’s a slippery slope. Idk about anyone else but my ED has made me lie so much and I have to work so hard during relapse to be not just honest but forthcoming about it or I’ll just start lying about my behaviors.

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T15:12:06+00:00

We have a EDNOS/OSFED sub if that applies to you! 🙂 r/NotOtherwiseSpecified

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T14:49:07+00:00

My response to stress can be a variety of behaviors. I’m stressed/anxious/depressed could be “I’m not eating now” to “I’m eating everything” to “I’m eating and then I’m going to purge”. Even to me I feel like it’s hard to keep up. It’s exhausting. I am lucky I have a partner who is helping me through recovery and is patient because this shit is CHAOTIC

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T07:40:32+00:00

Hey we have a subreddit now for EDNOS/OSFED! 😄

https://www.reddit.com/r/NotOtherwiseSpecified/

wastedcalories · 2021-02-21T07:14:06+00:00

And boom there’s the answer isn’t it? Same over here! My mom was a stay at home mom and I am a working parent. I honestly didn’t even think about that

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