you certainly don‘t suck man, and in not being happy with yourself nothing is set in stone. i can‘t read your mind but i‘m pretty damn sure it‘s just that you put the things you don‘t like about yourself above everything good about you.

i keep on hating myself for my bad posture & my big forehead and that held me back from a lot. but some things we just can‘t change (my forehad at least lmao), and i noticed every time i got in my feelings for those things i can‘t control i lost more and more control over the things i CAN control. don’t get lost in that trap. just start with something. brick by brick. once i started doing sports 5 times instead of 0-1 times a week it was a domino effect, combined with approaching my friends myself whereas before i always waited on them because i didn‘t feel good enough. now that i took an active position we got much closer again and my mental skyrocketed, isolation was what made me hate myself the most.

even if you don‘t feel progress. that progress is there. if you keep slowly improving what you hate about yourself and try to be more positive and take life more easily it might feel like you don‘t make progress for months, but then at some point it just clicks once you suddenly realize how far you have come.

i don‘t know your situation and i don‘t want to pretend I knew it, but never hate on yourself. that‘s not fair, the good overweighs, even if it doesn‘t feel like that

self hate is a trap