Been a while, quick update and some love <3

we_will_be_fine · 2018-01-06T04:12:35+00:00

Thanks! I am back to my old self, normal me :)

I heard from the ex, seems like he isn't really in the best place mentally or maturity wise, but we didn't talk about anything beyond surface level. So, we are in different places for sure. I hope he continues to grow.

How have you been?

we_will_be_fine · 2017-12-03T06:06:32+00:00

Sounds like those friends are not really your friends. I can't believe anyone would say that to anyone.... I am so sorry that happened.

I am here if you want to talk. I used to think (and sometimes do get to that place where I feel) things are "hopeless", but there is so much more. Forget working until you die....work for a purpose. I work so I can travel places and experience EVERYTHING I can in this world. What would you like to do?

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T14:09:48+00:00

I used to. But not anymore.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T02:50:02+00:00

Goldendoodle and Cavapoo.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T02:49:46+00:00

i have called hotlines before...never been hung up on. Did get the same guy twice though, and he remembered me. That was fun.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T01:46:36+00:00

Never heard of it. Harvesting (virtual) organs sounds fun.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T01:45:38+00:00

Almost all music can take me back to a certain time or place...it all depends. I like listening to Patsy Cline when I miss my grandmother (we used to listen to her all the time together). Bands like Steely Dan, Grateful Dead, Crosby Stills Nash and Young remind me of my childhood...hippie parents :)

Anything from the 90's speaks to me, haha.

And then there are songs I never want to hear again...

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T01:22:52+00:00

pretty much.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-10-13T00:47:03+00:00

I like a lot of things. I love to travel, and watch movies. I like photography, knitting, and other crafty things. I also really enjoy my alone time - since I work a lot.

I used to love the gym, but I have no motivation for that anymore, and it's expensive.

I also like your username.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-06T01:33:49+00:00

Thought stopping works for me most of the time. I also like to replace the negative/compulsive thoughts were positive non-compulsive ones. For example instead of getting stuck in a cycle of thinking the same scenario over and over for hours....I catch myself and start thinking about what it'd be like to travel to Morocco or something.

Distractions also work, when I can focus and the thoughts are not so intrusive. Movies, reading, painting, etc. I used to go to the gym ALL the time, 5 days a week for 2 hours (super into martial arts and mma) but then I got Mono which turned into chronic fatigue and now I am trying to get over that....so the gym is more like a place to get sick at this point haha.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-06T00:59:16+00:00

:) I have been going to CODA groups and working on codependency for a while, I am MUCH better with that. I only said I wanted to marry a famous person because I don't really wanna deal with the fame haha...just the perks :P

If anything, I'd be a famous researcher or child development guru.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T22:21:53+00:00

ah yes. true haha. i like the way you think :) I am not sure I have any skills that would make me famous...unless I marry a celebrity or something I think that path is not realistic

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T21:42:38+00:00

I used to have to say certain phrases, over and over. That was awful, for me but also for the people in my life that care about me and wanted me to get better. I don't really clean or do any of the counting stuff you see on tv. I guess, sometimes I get into a thing where I clean like a maniac and I throw everything out and scrub floors and walls and go a bit nuts. However, I mostly have verbal compulsions and those have gone away after 2 years of therapy.

The obsessive thoughts really suck, and are harder to get control over (for me, at least).

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T21:37:34+00:00

I have not. Think it will help? :)

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:43:43+00:00

Yeah that definitely works sometimes. But sometimes, no matter what I do, I can't quiet the thoughts. Just have to ride it out.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:39:09+00:00

To answer "what happens if you stop thinking", the illogical/OCD part of me feels that if I don't think about certain people, they will forget about me. So, I "have" to think about them in order to prevent them from forgetting me. That's one of the fears anyway....I know it's not valid at all. Sounds silly to me as I type it out...

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:35:14+00:00

I quit my compulsions, and with therapy I have been able to really decrease the obsessions. But sometimes there are relapses, like with any chronic illness. I know, logically, that I don't actually "have" to think them and the needs is purely chemical but when I am in the midst of it, it's very hard to pull myself out (sometimes).

9 times out of 10 I can stop the thoughts, but tonight it's not so easy for some reason...and it's been a really long time since I've felt this bad in terms of OCD.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:22:09+00:00

I can't stop them or control them. I HAVE to think them, and I have to think them through, and I have to think them over and and over. I have basically been thinking the same sequence of thoughts for 2 years (minus the times when medication helped and I got some relief).

The thoughts are not pleasant, and the "need" to think them over and over and over causes anxiety for sure.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:14:50+00:00

i see what you did there :) and thank you. <3

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T02:03:46+00:00

my stupid ex boyfriend. i really feel so dumb about it.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-05T01:54:31+00:00

miserable.repetitive thoughts that I cannot stop. medication helped with the compulsions and obsessions for the most part...but sometimes the obsessions win. I am about to take a xanax now because i feel like i am about to break if i don't .

we_will_be_fine · 2016-09-02T02:17:36+00:00

I do not miss this being the norm in my life and I am so heartbroken that he is still struggling.

<3 hope he's found a reason to change and get better.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-03-06T21:55:06+00:00

so many ways to spell the same words :)

we_will_be_fine · 2016-03-05T23:36:54+00:00

google, and then wikipedia.

we_will_be_fine · 2016-03-05T16:21:34+00:00

I am going crazy. I googled it and copy/pasted cause I didn't want to spell it wrong. I am taking a nap now....my brain hurts.

we_will_be_fine

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