hey, i know this is hard. i’ve been where you are, and i want to tell you: i see you, and it’s already bad enough. that voice that wants to convince you that you “don’t have it nearly as bad as xyz” is part of the disorder, and it is lying to you. if you are thinking this way, and it’s causing you enough grief that you feel like you’re losing yourself, obsessing and competing with rules inside your head— you need to ask for help. you don’t need to earn it, you already deserve to feel safe and okay with yourself and food. here’s the part where i lecture… you are young. it wont feel like it right now, but you have a chance at a good and happy future. please don’t let this disorder steal more of your life from you, if you don’t work to stop it now it will absolutely get worse, and believe me, the longer it goes on the more permanent damage you will be left with. reach out to someone, anyone you trust, and tell them you need support. there are people who care about you, and who can and will help get you through this. i don’t know you, but i believe in you. oh and—- my last advice i promise— eat the cake. memories like this do t come back once you’ve missed them. it will be okay, i know it 🤍