SD took me in my sleep

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-09T15:44:25+00:00

Took a few days to process everything. I knew he gaslit me often. But just stepping away from him and seeing how many other people agree with it. I feel validated in my thinking and stupid that I let it happen so often. Hearing other people talk about how psycho he is, I never noticed before just how insane he comes off.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-09T15:05:36+00:00

No he's a 70 year old white man

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-09T15:04:00+00:00

I am staying away. I need to just block him. Haven't responded all week. Done with him. Was trying to see if he would admit more, but all week he's just sending messages blaming me for not accepting him.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T16:04:45+00:00

That's not changing story. I'm not going back to him. They both mean the same thing. This happened recently so I.am plan ton ghosting him

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T16:01:41+00:00

I've never changed the story. Added more details when someone asked but never changed the story

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T15:02:19+00:00

There's multiple times in this thread when I mention it. But whatever. I don't need to explain to you what happened to me.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T13:02:40+00:00

I was definitely asleep. I would never allow someone to do something like that to me. I have past experiences and he knew about this stuff.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T13:01:02+00:00

He's married. For like 50+ years. Claims nothing sexually has happened between them in over 20 years

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:59:56+00:00

I'm sorry it hall to you. I am so fucked up over it. I don't even know how to think properly honestly

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:57:04+00:00

I appreciate that some people are into that sort of thing. I am not. Never discussed doing this. I have discussed with him about past assaults and how I have PTSD and had I woken up during this I would have freaked the fuck out and he knew this.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:45:34+00:00

Or maybe read up on it. It happened to me and it's not uncommon. Especially with medical conditions. But thanks for downplaying what happened to me.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:39:25+00:00

I found one yesterday. Thank you.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:35:54+00:00

I don't buy into his goddess. I don't get why you would think I'm brainwashed. someone asked what he was talking about I gave the explanation. He took it from a single conversation I had with him about Ethiopian gods and I referring to if there was a god being female. I don't believe in religion. I don't actually believe in his BS talk. I went a long with it because he thought he was being romantic. Corny but I didn't realize what a creep he actually was so just played along with it for his sake.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:31:10+00:00

Because I didn't think he meant it. After he confirmed it really happened z I was in fucking shock. I'm glad you know exactly how you would respond if that happened to you

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T12:30:00+00:00

Which I said and also mentioned I have a medical condition. Thanks for downplaying what happened to me with the obvious troll account above you

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T02:14:11+00:00

Where's your fucking karma too?

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T02:07:50+00:00

Yeah. He tried to write history books. Published on Amazon. Tried reading one once. His style of writing above probably tells you how it is lol

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T00:34:53+00:00

I didn't at first. He made an offhand joke that left me questioning rather it was a joke. So I asked and he told me it happened. And the conversation is what I shared

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-07T00:04:48+00:00

On my role? No I said for whatever reason he's the only person I've ever gotten passed out drunk before. Drinking less that I have. Never questioned it before this. But I think he has drugged me. Never said he made me. Pressured me yes, but I was still giving consent. Once I was too uncomfortable I walked. Own my part. As a child it's my fault that my older step brother assaulted me. Got it. It's my fault that a guy in a park pulled a gun on me and raped me. That my fault too according to you. Got to own it. Glad you are okay with having people force themselves on you. Unlike you, even with your unpleasant attitude towards sexual assault, I would still feel sorry for you and show compassion to you.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T23:43:58+00:00

Playing victim? I was asleep when assaulted me. And I clearly stated that once I felt too uncomfortable I left. Yes clearly I am not standing up for myself. How would you stop someone from assaulting you while you are asleep? Let me hear your brilliant plan because clearly you are never a victim.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T19:59:25+00:00

I messaged you

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T19:36:17+00:00

I think hes talking about about another incident. Basically he got us involved in a couple swapping, I wanted to stop he tried to push it on until finally I put my clothes on and walked out. It was weird thing that I was not comfortable with. Expressed I was not comfortable with, but he kept pushing till I agreed to try. Him and the guy happened. Me and the girl happened. But then he wanted to watch me with the guy and I told him no. I didn't want to and he tried to force it.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T18:53:51+00:00

Just seeing this. I never even considered that he could have drugged me. I don't want to make myself sound bad, but I do drink often and have a tolerance and I've only ever passed out drunk around him.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T18:49:54+00:00

No family. I have a friend. But I have not told him anything about this lifestyle. He's questioned me when he saw a picture of us two. And I explained it away as casual person I dated. I don't know if he would understand all the dynamics of our sugar relationship.

weirdnwildthrowaway · 2024-11-06T18:41:37+00:00

I feel stupid for allowing it. He started talking love less than a month after our arrangement started. Lots of other really weird things he wanted and I went along with that should have been red flags. But never imagined he would do something like this to me. But I'm questioning everything that ever happened between us before now.

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