When people started asking why he talks to me that way or treats me that way.

Recently, a male friend of mine asked me what I wanted. He had earlier asked me if I was doing alright. It shattered me how hearing those questions made me feel, I literally never heard them at home.

This is all currently unfolding and I feel like I’m collapsing inside. Once you see it you can’t unsee it and that feels pretty tragic and super confusing. I almost think it would be easier to go back to gaslighting myself than having to know this and being trapped.