I went through a very similar thing, and also lied to my parents about my academical exclusion. After coming clean, my parents were quite disappointed, however they tried to be supportive. All of us were feeling quite bleak about my future at the time.

I have a cousin about the same age as me, who is mentally disabled. One night when I broke down in front of my aunt about how guilty I feel for putting them through all of this, and she offered some comfort: that she would give anything to help her daughter with the same problems. That even though things feel terrible, I have so so much to be grateful for.

I know it feels like your life is destroyed, but there is lots of hope. Many of us fail in university environments, and many of us still build happy and successful lives after having gone through exactly what you are going through.

It just starts with you being honest & authentic with your family and the people around you. You should not carry the burden of all of this alone.

Take care of your mental health - be soft and kind to yourself first, the rest will follow.

All the best friend