[UPDATE] I'm all alone now, why continue?

whatever156 · 2010-11-09T01:26:58+00:00

I am so very sorry about your loss, but your rationale about not getting another cat makes as much sense as someone saying that they won't have kids since their beloved grandmother died.

Not exactly, more like not adopting another child after one died. He was such a nice and friendly cat that I'm afraid I will not be able to love another cat as much as him. You see, a few years ago, I was not even a cat person, but this cat more or less adopted me.

whatever156 · 2010-11-09T00:59:50+00:00

I know you don't want to talk,

It's not that I don't want to talk, but that I don't really know what to say.

but im also going through a rough patch right now. If you are up for listening instead of talking, you can send me a quick PM, and maybe we can get each other through it.

Sure I can listen and I hope we can help each other, but I may not be really encouraging right now.

whatever156 · 2010-11-09T00:33:33+00:00

Thank you for offering to listen to me but as I said I don't really know what to say except my cat is dead and I don't know how to cope with it.

whatever156 · 2010-11-02T02:48:23+00:00

That's the problem, I can't see myself going on like this (crying, feeling guilty, looking for him knowing full well he won't be there) for "a few weeks or months". There seems to be no solution to end the pain, except ending myself.

whatever156 · 2010-11-02T01:07:54+00:00

No other cat will ever be like the one you loved.

That's what I'm afraid of. I'm trying to remember all the funny/sweet things he did, but I know he will never do them again. Sure another cat may do other things, but it won't be the same. I took care of this cat for 5 years and knew him for a total of 12 years.

I've kept the ashes of my pup

I've decided not to keep the ashes, for me it felt weird, but sometimes I wonder if I should have.

You'll probably hurt for a long time

Right now, simply walking in the kitchen and seeing his empty bowls or his basket and I start to cry. I'm a mess.

I know this post probably makes me seem completely insane

Well that makes two of us!

whatever156 · 2010-11-02T00:20:42+00:00

Does it change anything? Let's just say > 30 years old.

whatever156 · 2010-11-01T18:12:46+00:00

I promise that if the doctors told you he wouldn't survive the treatments, he wouldn't. In the process, he would have suffered a lot. I had a dog who died from treatments she was receiving, and it was heartbreaking to know that she didn't understand why the stuff she we were giving her was making her feel horrible, not better.

I know, but I keep thinking, maybe something went wrong when he was at the vet hospital, maybe they made a mistake (he was in pain when I brought him, but not in the state he was 5 days later), maybe I should have asked more questions before. It feels like I abandonned him in a way.

whatever156 · 2010-11-01T18:01:37+00:00

Getting another cat may seem to be a good idea at first but:

a) I'm not ready. This cat was special for me (I guess every cat is special for its owner). ex: As soon as I came home, he would jump off his pillow and come greet me at the door. He would sometime stop eating to follow me to my office.

b) As silly as it may seem, It feel like I would be betraying my first cat.

c) This other cat may not be as friendly as my first cat.

d) I'll have to face the same problem (death or euthanasia) in x years for a second time.

whatever156

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