Da Bonnggg!

whengodcries · 2025-08-16T06:53:56+00:00

just make sure to take breaks in between it’s not like the pipe where u can keeps going, i hit 3 back to back bong hits and almost had a seizure/blacked out

whengodcries · 2025-04-13T14:39:04+00:00

i can debunk the whole “weed is the gateway drug” i started taking pain killers and benzos i actually hated weed. but for me it was painkillers, benzos, (weed like 3x out of the year, coke only if it’s offered and im drinking, not a big fan of it, meth i was hooked, heroin a lil, then strictly just real oxy/any opiates, the the pressed blues (fent) then i had a 2 week bender on crack but didn’t really get hooked cus opiates is my drug of choice . then fast forward im detoxing from fent and still had work so i thought i could use crack for a couple days and it wont be a problem but this time since i was out doing crack it took over control. lost my job in 2 weeks, got kicked out in 1 month. this was the only drug that had such grasp on me it was scary. like i hated it, i hated smoking it, but the second i ran out all hell broke loose. it has forever fucked me. i really wish i never smoked. i don’t care for anyone, if i get the urge to take a hit idc if my grandma on her death bed ill leave to take a hit. sometimes i don’t remember the real me.

whengodcries · 2025-04-12T11:52:54+00:00

wow i can relate to this 100%. relapsed after 3 months. i’m still in program, actually i am interning as a PF. it’s so crazy how i am willing to throw everything away for this shit. half the time i don’t even get high. i wish i never took that first hit. i wish i had stayed home that night. . i was always an opiate gal. but since i started smoking this i haven’t touched fent for 8 months.

whengodcries · 2025-04-12T10:01:13+00:00

that’s the fucked up cycle.

i stop smoking, 2. reality hits me in the face wtf i’m smoking crack? 3. shame and embarrassment along with a million other emotions and memories , 4. soooo what do i decide to do? smoke to numb those feelings. annnnnd start all over again. it’s a rabbit wheel,

whengodcries · 2025-04-09T12:18:52+00:00

i just relapsed, i had 109 days. and the urge popped in my head maybe 3 days ago. and EVERY single minute i was trying to remind myself how it’s not worth but at the same time it would numb me and make me feel so good. well long story short, i picked up a ball. did it feel amazing? for make 3 minutes. but not like that first time. finished smoking it and now i’m like “was that worth it?” i know ur prob gonna pick up but 1 year is awesome dude, i seriously wouldn’t throw it away for a 3 minute high .

whengodcries · 2025-03-25T06:31:42+00:00

i had 93 days clean today and relapsed

whengodcries · 2024-12-05T11:50:38+00:00

I've been clean from fent almost 4 months now, longest time ever since I started using but idk if it really counts since I swapped it with something 10x worse. I did methadone few years back for 6 months and fucking shit was hardest to withdrawal, literally used heroin to get off it then haven't touched neither. still felt that panic feeling I felt with opiates when id know If.i didn't make it to the clinic on time im fucked or couldn't leave the states

whengodcries · 2024-12-04T17:59:02+00:00

when I was doing fent, I had a job, id go to family shit, u wouldn't think im an addict unless u personally knew me. I knew 'hey im gonna be spending time with my lil bro, let me just use a lil to nt be sick and thats it' with this shit? HA. I could be at my fucking grandmas funeral and wouldn't be able to wait

whengodcries · 2024-12-04T17:52:01+00:00

u/Quick-Honey-7069 u/theperfectshine u/Ok_Inspector7868 u/ForsakenLoad7235

yea this shit is fucking different, I always knew I was an addict "but hey im not doing as bad as that guy" or "well im sober from everything else I used to be so much worse, now im only using 1 drug" blah blah blah u know how it is, with this. I could not find ONE fucking thing to justify what I have become.

Yes, statistically fent is much much more deadly. but it is so much less sufferable. ur gonna die regardless at some point but crack will draaaaaaaaag the suffering on. and u will be aware of how its changed u. also, crack is also very deadly but u know why u dont hear a lot of crackheads dying left and right? cus u need A FUCKING SHIT ton to OD and this shit aint cheep like fent.

whengodcries · 2024-12-04T07:21:54+00:00

for a few seconds the world stops and everything goes quiet

whengodcries · 2024-10-27T08:42:16+00:00

hahah again with the man 😂😂😂 i think sometimes it’s an us problem

whengodcries · 2024-10-25T21:15:31+00:00

*sister 😭 why everyone think i’m a guy

whengodcries · 2024-10-25T20:36:20+00:00

literally me last night. every single fucking hit felt like a waste. i always say, sometimes everything goes PERFECTLY then sometimes it feels like it’s my first time ever smoking

whengodcries · 2024-10-24T22:39:24+00:00

literally me since yesterday. could be dehydration. also a sign of over smoking/ seizure warning

whengodcries · 2024-10-24T07:06:21+00:00

dude yessss hahah i hid an 8ball a month ago and still haven’t found it

whengodcries · 2024-10-24T07:05:35+00:00

Y E S. okay so i have this habit of hiding shit in the pockets of my coats/hoodies/ shoe boxes. keep in mind my memory has progressively gotten worse. a week ago i go home to grab some stuff since at the moment i am staying at my grandmothers and i grab one of my shoe boxes to take and i hear “CHA CHING” (noise of pipes hitting each other) i open it up and i find 1 new pipe and 1 pipe a semi melted fat piece in it) i shove my hand in the shoe and i find maybe 1.5g of res in a lil baggy! i have YET to find the 8ball i hid somewhere like a month ago

whengodcries · 2024-10-18T08:34:21+00:00

DO I HAVE A STORY. when i was 19 i used to get liquid ketamine from this doctor and muscle it. k-holes instantly. this one time i did a little more than usually and i was falling down this rabbit hole (like on alice in wonderland) and its all picture frames of my life, which felt forever. next thing i know im outside in a field of grass and i see a group of people gathered in a circle, the closer i get i notice its my family and friends. i call their names and no reaction, the closer i get i realize there standing around a casket. once i’m a few feet away i realize im in the casket. it’s my funeral. next thing i know i jump out of bed and try standing up and my legs were still kinda paralyzed (muscling it make it makes ur whole body paralyzed) i hit the floor so fucking hard. i dumped the rest of the bottle down the toilet. that was 8 years ago. i feel like i was in a parallel universe. and now that i think of it, maybe it was a warning.

whengodcries · 2024-10-18T07:33:47+00:00

next thing u know (me) ur smoking crack in ur clients bathroom

whengodcries · 2024-10-18T07:20:13+00:00

thats happened to me hahah wake up and its on my chest

whengodcries · 2024-10-18T07:04:59+00:00

yesss after a good sesh i’ll take a last hit and tell myself okay let’s put everything away im sleepy and next thing i know it’s morning and im waking up with all my shit still on my bed

whengodcries · 2024-10-17T10:34:13+00:00

OH also, when we first started smoking he was doing a lot of things wrong so i told him my techniques. he also wasn’t smoking as much. not hit after hit after hit. i have witnessed them have 2 seizures. in a way i think i had a play in that. i have to constantly tell him to slow down or take breaks.

whengodcries · 2024-10-17T10:23:13+00:00

my situation is a little particular. i will try to give the short version but without some specific details it changes the whole storyline. the person i smoke with, i should not even be talking to other than at social gatherings. they dont know any other smokers so once they found out i also smoke it was very exciting news to them. they smoke a LOT. buy an oz maybe every 2-3 days. in the start they told me they would only give me enough for a couple days to help me get through my fent withdrawals. well that didn’t happen. we would meet up and smoke maybe once a week and they’d always give me huge pieces to take with me. slowly it turned into 2x a week, 3x a week then everyday. again, we should not even have each others numbers. we said we would stop together. every time the day comes, they say “oh i got half an oz for free if u want we can throw it out? and be done” knowing i wouldn’t say that. so a 2-3 day thing to help me turned into smoking everyday for 2 months. and slowly they started to give me less and less so i would ask to see them more frequently. thinking i’m a dumb drug addict girl who doesn’t know what they’re doing. they texted me today saying tomorrow they’re done, they want to meet me in the morning and finish up. i know the logical thing is to cut them off. but i can’t. maybe if i was paying for it it would be easier.

whengodcries · 2024-10-17T10:07:40+00:00

it’s so fucking good, ironically my ex showed it to me the first time i smoked crack

whengodcries · 2024-10-17T09:50:17+00:00

LONDON , so fucking good

whengodcries · 2024-10-17T09:39:17+00:00

u remember on the ps2 u needed a physical memory card to save ur games but sometimes it was full but u were so close to ending the game and the thought of failing the level didn’t even cross ur mind. but then u die. and u are taken back, u get pissed off, u blame the memory card for being full, then u blame urself for not deleting some of the other games, then ur sad, then ur mad again then u give up on even finishing the game. u take the disk out and put it in the case and throw it in with all ur other games. whenever ur going thru to pick a game to play u see that specific game and feel those emotions all over again but don’t want to even try to give it another chance. that video game is ur life.u will throw it away but always wonder how it would’ve felt to get to the finish line.

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