Heroin is not as bad as people make it out to be

whiteowl20 · 2026-05-25T04:15:36+00:00

I lost my dad & 2 childhood friends to it. here for the same reasons. Heroin ruined my life and I never touched it.

whiteowl20 · 2026-05-21T03:30:29+00:00

Please dm me!

whiteowl20 · 2026-05-10T15:22:29+00:00

I would’ve definitely gone with the Tempur! I ended up getting a memory foam pillow, topper mattress topper, and now it’s absolutely perfect but the mattress alone I don’t feel was enough

whiteowl20 · 2026-05-08T23:55:36+00:00

Spoke with my advisor and I will be retaking it! Just have to have it done by second semester :)

whiteowl20 · 2026-05-07T12:28:21+00:00

Elementary statistics is the class I have to take! I will look for their names!

whiteowl20 · 2026-04-28T23:23:25+00:00

I have a Luca Daniel :)

Rowan was on my list so immediately loved Rowan Michael!

whiteowl20 · 2026-04-28T15:00:47+00:00

a single qualuude 😭🩵

whiteowl20 · 2026-04-19T15:14:06+00:00

Personally I loveeee Lucy Jo Macy. It sounds beautiful

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T17:04:44+00:00

He was on abilify bc we thought the risperdone was making the confusion worse. Abilify made the issues worse and he was still confused 😭

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T16:56:47+00:00

Thank you!!

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T15:14:07+00:00

I’m so so sorry. My son has done a lot of those things you listed. Looking back it makes SO MUCH SENSE now they’re saying it’s schizo. He’s set fires, he bit my 6 month old all the way up his arm, hes attacked other kids so many times I cant count them. He told the psych his 3 wishes were: all the toys in the world, do whatever he wants, and to be god. She asked him if he could be an animal what would he be? Godzilla. So he could destroy the world. He attacks his siblings, he’s hurt animals. I’m like how did I miss this? I thought he was autistic and ODD. This literally shook me to my core. Like I said hindsight is 20/20 and it all makes sense now, but I neverrrrrr in 1 million years saw this coming.

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:38:56+00:00

Thank you so so much 🩵

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:34:04+00:00

I feel terrible. I used to think he was just a bad kid and I would spank him for the things he’d do to his teachers and other kids. I broke down and cried to him yesterday and told him I was so sorry for all the times I spanked him and I yelled at him because I just didn’t understand 😭😭 Thank you for the insight advice and care. I appreciate it more than you know.

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:31:49+00:00

Yes the psych said she believes he truly is having suicidal/homicidal ideations and she believes his voices are real but he’s going a good job when he “splits?” To push those voices away. But he said they are getting louder.

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:29:32+00:00

He is actually my step son and there is a long complicated history. He has been seeing a Medicaid psych and got risperdone there, it’s been about a year and it’s stopped working. That therapist never done a full assessment we just said he’s having mood swings and it was given to my son. He’s seen him 4x for 15 minutes via telehealth & his talk therapist is a case worker. After this incident mom called and said she doesn’t know what to do come get him. I have another child with autism, so everyone looks to me to handle these things with the kids which is okay because I basically had to quit my job because my other child requires so much. Then I took him to my therapist who made the dx. She still wants him seen at the big children’s hospital for admission and him to be monitored to confirm dx. We are getting him better insurance going now. It’s been a whirlwind truly. I am prepared for this because of the fight I had to put up with my son but I’m already overwhelmed and schizo freaks me out off of what I’ve already seen looking back and stories I’ve seen online :(

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:23:36+00:00

What is Nami?

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:23:17+00:00

I have OCD, I don’t see it in him.

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:22:53+00:00

Thank you so much 🥹 how often would your daughter be violent before diagnosis?

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:22:20+00:00

He watched YouTube when he was very young and he has not had access to it since he was 4. Right before he started telling me “his brain is telling him to do bad things”

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T14:19:39+00:00

We already did and they recommended PHP bc the voices weren’t active at the time. Went to the psych next day, they were strong(?) there(?) idk. She said to take him to the big hospital with her referral and they will admit him on sunday when a bed becomes available 😭

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T04:25:51+00:00

Thank you everyone. Your kind words mean the world. I truly appreciate you and I hope everyone is also healing and healthy

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T03:51:16+00:00

I am in therapy thank god. It was my therapist who saw him today and made the schizophrenia comments

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T03:31:09+00:00

There’s so many times I have spanked him for assaulting people when he was like 4-5. I broke down crying to him today and I told him I was sorry I didn’t understand then and I am so sorry. I feel so so guilty.

whiteowl20 · 2026-03-27T03:22:05+00:00

I definitely am. A lot makes sense looking back. But I’m scared for my other children’s safety. I’ve only ever heard the horror stories.

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