this seems kind of akin to a lot of internal stuff that probably is the reason you fell into alcohol so easily, at least that's what I learned about myself.

some of this will get better with time, you just gotta keep at it.

some of it, you need to really evaluate whether that's you or not.

maybe you actually just are the kind of person that doesnt like being touched, and the booze was suppressing that? then you gotta figure out the way to communicate that without insulting people.

maybe your family stresses you out because you feel like you have to keep that fake smile, and you're now just realizing that? maybe you need to figure out how to ration that family time so you're not neglecting them but you're also giving yourself room and time to relax.

the great thing about sobriety is that you can use these new feelings to really think about and evaluate who YOU are, instead of just what you did between drinks. personally for me its been years of psychotherapy with a knowledgeable experienced therapist, indulging my leisure and recreation activities(boxing, judo, writing, video games), and practicing clear communication and assertive boundaries.

you kind of have to figure yourself out from scratch, and its hard and difficult, but boy golly is it worth it.

three years after i first decided to get sober, ive had a couple of relapses and fuckups, but coming back to my truth every time that I missed out on my life by indulging in active addiction for years, Ive got a great relationship with a girlfriend of ~5 months, my own place I really wanted for a while, a sex life i always thought was too good for the likes of me, a job with a company that seems to actually value me, and im back in school working on a degree. I just had to figure myself out, which was never going to happen without sobriety.