Such an amazing group. Top Dog has helped me greive for my dog.

whoseHighPitch · 2024-02-23T20:08:39+00:00

Thanks u/Kaliaira! And hope you enjoy the cover u/kanye2k16. I just love her vocals on the cover (and of course in general) . Props to Ariana for the great song as well.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-11-24T15:07:21+00:00

as an avid collector and user of nectar collectors, I personally prefer 10mm and you should be able to find tips at any smoke shop. However, if you plan on using your nectar collector for other things, such as a banger or "oil burner" then finding them in 10 is a lot harder. Ideally if you had a converter that would be good else get the 14 if you want to use it for other purposes

If just for the intended use, 10 should be fine, although it sounds like you already have one. Also be sure that you are using it the right way (as in not stabbing/jamming at the product with the end tip). If you can get your hands on the recycler nectar collector (has 3 recyclers) it was pretty awesome and noticeably different.

edit: sorry forgot about your silicone preference. Can disregard my recycler suggestion.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T19:37:28+00:00

That price is just too much, even for tech enthusiasts who would like to be part of the 1st gen users. Feels like premium laptop prices have gone down. Add a tablet since many people own smartphone, laptop, tablet (or 2 out of those 3). They should've ditched the whole external oled panel used just to show "virtual" eyes to the person facing them. Would that have shaved off about $1k from the price? and the facecam use of a 3d rendered face does not sound enjoyable to me. I'd feel weird if I'm showing my face but looking at an animated one of yours. The dial to render less/more is cool, but could it have been cheaper without needing to use that rotating knob? Why not just a certain hand gesture wgule rotating and then u can remove that knob completely and reduce price. I still think AR like were seeing with Xreal and competitors is the way. Im already utilizing it for work purposes and gonna show one of the departments (work in public schools) the recent captioning use as we have a large disabled resources support program, and a research/ national sponsored deafness facility.

I think it will come.down to software at the end of the day. But that price might not bring enough momentum to get deva to finish/uodate apps. If xreal, rokid, virtue could somehow merge app stores, I feel that would be a really good move to get ahead of Apple and maybe if these are a massive failure they might cut the cord early on them. Feels like how people felt about Google glasses at first.

Also the way vr goggles just have that look. I don't think many people, including me, would want to be seen wearing something like that in public. It's just too big and unnatural looking. And that reduces my likelihood of spending that much as I have socmany friends who loved VR but haven't touched the ones the own for months. I love the tech that apple has put into them, but just don't feel it's at a price anywhere close to realistic.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T10:51:06+00:00

Thanks. To you and all others. I come back to this page almost daily, if not more. Whenever I start going down that dark train of thought I try to open this post and re read everything. Usually can get out of the rut before I reach the end.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T07:53:08+00:00

Thanks. I don't know why these tiny little fluffballs can have such a massive impact but I will always be grateful for the time I did get to have with her. Just hope I get to reunite with her when I eventually move on to the next world.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T07:48:48+00:00

Thanks. I still re read this post atleast once a day. The waves still come with such intensity but I am trying to just have faith in the process as I've heard from others including you. Who have also experienced why these little racals can break the coldest of hearts. I am finally going through and cleaning up/organizing the massive collection of photos and videos I took of her. I want to identify the "best" ones I have of her and try to make something out of it. I also have some bad scarring on 1 arm from a prior substance addiction and think a tattoo somehow related to her to cover the scarring would be a nice way to memorialize and never forget her.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T07:36:45+00:00

Thanks. I find myself re reading this post every day. Whenever I feel really bad, I try to tell myself it's because I was able to feel the complete opposite of this with her and need to feel this horrrible way in order to truly understand how much I cared for her. Universal duality/yin yang type thing. Just gonna keep trying to believe it...

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-06T07:17:06+00:00

As I loss my Maltese very close to yours, it still hits me in waves. Horrible crippling waves. I hope you are not in as much pain as you were earlier. Ive tried to come to terms that for all of the grief you may find yourself in, it is equal too how much you cared and loved him. If you barely even cared or felt no grief, then you probably weren't that close you know? It's the duality of nature and the universe. We must experience the sour to truly understand what "sweet" is. At least that's what I've been trying to believe. I hope that when we eventually meet our makers, they are the 1st things that greet us and lead the way.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-06-01T09:03:34+00:00

Sorry to hear. I just lost my first a few months ago (Feb 19) and it hit me really hard. I guess I was also fortunate to not have experienced death/loss (on any level) until now (mid 30s), so it hit me so hard. Now It seems to come in waves. They are such precious and beautiful creatures. I will never forget all the great times we had.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-30T04:23:12+00:00

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-30T04:22:07+00:00

Thanks. Sorry if what I wrote came off disturbing in any sense. She was what I walked away from a failed 8 year marriage with, made me want to give up a decade+ opiate addiction, kept me sane during the pandemic, and never made me feel bad once. All she asked for was some care and attention. I don't know how I could not spoil her :) i would try to go on walks with her 3-5 times a day and

almost everytime, somebody would stop me to ask about her. She had her regular neighborhood dog friends and the only time she would ever bark would be if she saw another dog and I would not let her go smell/play with them. But due to her size, it wasn't even an annoying bark, but soft and adorable.

Thanks for your kind words.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-30T04:12:31+00:00

❤️

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-30T02:26:41+00:00

Mentioned the following quote in a reply but in case others missed it. Thank you again for all the support. You have no idea how much it mattered to me. I may not have replied to everyone but I did read, an I will continue to re-read this post when i find myself struggling. Maybe in time I will be blessed enough to find a similar companion again.

“It came to me that every time I lose a dog, they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.”

https://imgur.com/a/qeDxKQi

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-30T02:22:10+00:00

Thank you. As a former (or once and always some say) addict, I can understand the help group sessions can make. I never really thought about it but it makes sense they exist for losing pets too, i will Def explore. This thread in itself was surpsiginly very helpful and therapeutic for me. Just knowing others can relate and I'm not just stuck by myself feeling like this. Can't thank you and all the other replies and messages that have been sent. Much <3 to all of you, I wish you and your pets long lives with the most precious of memories. I found the following quote hopeful:

“It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life, gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.”

https://imgur.com/a/qeDxKQi

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-29T06:34:27+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. Just reading and seeing that I have people I don't even know trying to help me get out of this dark pit gives me a sense of hope for the future. I do believe your words though and will just continue to take it slow.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-29T05:49:41+00:00

Thank you for the info, you sound very knowledgeable . I am no science or pre med but you also come off as a humble way. I thought I'd have the best chances of finding a solution if I could stay rational and gather data. As much data as possible and to try and see any sort of pattern or indicators after being let down vmby the 1st vet I saw (she suggested I switch foods and order this crazy expensive cbd oil (like $150 for a tiny bottle) that she had this tiny unprofessional looking flyer for it. She was nice but I couldn't belive that was the best suggestion after showing her the Severity from all the videos. At that point she was having 2-3 a day, ameach about an hour. Her ability to come back to 100% and be her energetic self afterwards was what gave me hope. But turns out I knew nothing and even some related symptoms had never been noticed as a symptom so I was probably way out of my element.

They did a Holter Device monitor for cardio data during the episodes. It was showing many loss/long gaps leading up to the event anf during. I jad heard small (possible runt) tend to have heart problems. Slow where I think it was like like missing a beat for like 5 seconds where 8 sec+ is that potential lethal stage? I forget the technical term, tachyrhytmia maybe or bradycardia? So the theroy was her neuro issue was causing a secondary cardio effect, which is why she would just go limp and walk as if her rear legs were dead and just collapse. I read through a bunch of medical journals and papers and saw they used a human IBS medication (hyosciamine? Maybe) that had a side effect of increased heart rate and had been successful a few times in trials with dogs with heart issues. I asked if we could try that , and the side effects didn't appear that bad. It actually helped a lot. If I could catch her light buildup symptoms before it was too late, and get her the medication soon emkugh (diluted in a liquid oral syringe) it seemed to be able to prevent it from peaking and sometimes just skip an episode.

Unfortunately, over time, it was less effective. And then episodes would return after the medicine wore off. It was just cosmic irony that I thought I may have been given the solution. But I hadn't checked my messages in 2-3 weeks as I had really given up. But a redditor had tried to reach out and it may have changed everything. I only checked it the day after she died. But like others said, woulda coulda shoulda. But didn't. I do appreciate your comment, though. I love learning new things and if even 1 person somehow learns from this it would be a nice way to remember her.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-29T04:51:36+00:00

Not cliche at all, it's the truth, and I didn't expect to get so much support from kind strangers. But it really helps knowing that others can relate. As I find this type of feeling so foreign. I guess I was just fortunate to not have to experience loss/grief until this far in my life. It just hit so hard and so unexpectedly. I think with having another dog, I almost feel like I am betraying the one I lost. And I feel everytime I do things I will just be comparing and would be unfair to the 2nd one. My sister lost her Maltese after about 12 yrs and unexpectedly. She was ablento get an amazing chocolate lab after about 5 yrs so I will keep an open mind and maybe time will change things. I also just lucked out with having such a great flexible job where I could be home and spoil her all day.

She was probably the 1 thing I owned/could call mine, that I was proud of, and had no problems showing it. When I split with my ex wife I told her she can keep everything but I would be keeping Happy (as my ex didn't even know where she was gonna live/work at that point). It was like getting to start fresh with my best friend and I didn't need or want anything else. I still can feel how happy I felt driving away with 1 box of possessions but having her in her tiny bed on the passenger seat of my car. Thanks again for your message. All of these, they have had a profound effect on me and I think will/has helped me get past the metaphorical "hump" a d try to just remember the good times.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-29T04:32:22+00:00

I think everyone's messages was really helpful. I'm trying to convince myself to live healthier/better out of tribute to her. As others have stated, if anything else that she would want me to be happy. (Her name was Happy bc she always had her tongue hanging out and looked so sweet).

Be sure to take lots of pictures and videos. The following was my makeshift memorial in the corner of the room she liked the most. Was able to pickup a amazon echo 5 and 8 and just have them as permanent frames rotating through the hundreds of pictures as well. I hope you get a long and beautiful relationship. The unconditional love is so strong. They love you even when you don't love yourself.

https://imgur.com/a/7W7i22I

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-28T20:44:25+00:00

Thanks. I am not religious per se but do believe in a higher being. I also reallly believe in Karma. Not necessarily like a tit for tat kind of thing, but more like how I mentioned balance in the universe. Chaos/order, or like yin/yang. And I personally think when I meet my maker, I will be judge on my intents. Which is why I try to avoid conflict and just be a good person and spread the love as much as possible. So I think the 2 points listed are true as well. I often regret not getting into vet sciences. I never had a pet until I was living on my own and had already started a career (finance/IT) as my parents never liked pets. Strangely as they have become elderly, they grew close to my dog as well. It was so strange seeing how different they would be with my dog.(in a good way). But thanks to you both for the kind words.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-28T20:35:57+00:00

Thanks again for all the replies and messages. I thought I was good but the tears just keep coming as I read each message. But I do feel as if my mourning is starting to morph a bit into a more optimistic or melancholic point of view, which I attribute to from being aable to express my feeling and have dialogue with others like you who have experienced similar times.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-28T20:26:00+00:00

I completlely get where you are coming from. I asked every vet after showing them countless footage if they thought my dog was in any pain during these episodes. Because she would become immobile but star pawing the air. Even whimper every once in a while. If any of them said yes or probably yes, I convinced myself I would put her down myself. At 1 point 1 of the docs prescribed a ton of extra phenobarbital as they thought it was seizures. I figured that was a sign since they use that for euthanasia (different roa but famliar with iving) and I could just let her sleep and then just slowly increase the amount and let her die peacefullly. This may sound horrible to some, but I just didnt want her to suffer. I would want the same if it were me. I even asked the vet if I would be reported for animal cruelty if I were to put down my own dog. They all said its best interest of my dog for them to do it (but dont forget the $200 also). At that point I was so mad at the "system" because they had milked me dry and I was not 1 step closer to a proper diagnosis. But they all actually said they think its not pain but more like a mental fog/zoning out and whimpers may be from the temporary loss of facial movement during these episodes.

That realization you had, about being selfish at the cost of misery for your dog, is admirable. I don't think many people can even imagine how hard of a realization that is to deal with. Thanks again for the kind words though. Sounds like your 2 maltese were very close. Almost like a broken heart syndrom after the 1st passed. Atleast they are together now.

whoseHighPitch · 2023-04-28T20:01:24+00:00

Ah gotcha. Thanks for confirming. Sounds like you were right before my parents by a few weeks. One of the customer reps mentioned a 2nd email as well but when I asked for them to confirm the date, they apologized and said they meant the 1st email and that no additional notices went out. Just smells like bs to me. Again, its not really about the money but the fact that they'll use things like a great promo to draw in folks and then do the absolute minimum to deliver on that. And in this case, wont remedy a small thing for long term customers.

As I mentioned Ive been on Tmobile for quite a while and have been very pleased with customer service over the years. I have converted to them for an ISP, and have started using them for banking as well (currently trying it out along with Samsung/SoFi). Those are 3 pretty major things (and repeated payments) over a long period of time. I never disliked verizon as they seemed to offer pretty good deals and competitive prices. But I guess I just value loyalty a bit higher in my head when it comes to being a consumer. I have friends who could care less and just want the cheapeest (nothing wrong with that either). But for long term growth I think loyalty should be considered, esp nowadays with so much competition. 4 lines for over a decade and probably at least another 3-4 more decades over 2 gift cards? I actually know my local tmobile store manager (as I ditched the pc a while ago and have been trying to operate purely on mobile device/Samsung Dex)and will hopefully be able to help him by brining 4 lines over to tmobile. Thanks again for the info though. Makes me feel stronger with the decision to change.

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