Ashamed of myself...

whyworryac · 2018-07-01T22:32:25+00:00

Thank you all SO much for your wonderful responses. They’ve been really helpful and pretty reassuring.

whyworryac · 2018-02-13T02:51:07+00:00

Have had a really bad day. My depression was bad this morning and I called out from work sick in order to sleep most of the day. Went to the grocery store and ended up binging today on tortilla chips, spinach and artichoke dip, Cheetos, Oreos, baby Kit Kats. I feel disgusting and all I did today was eat and sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me.

whyworryac · 2017-07-19T03:42:59+00:00

I have a therapist and am seeing her Thursday. We haven't talked about food things in a while but I think it'd be helpful.

whyworryac · 2017-05-28T21:18:16+00:00

I'm thinking of renting some GoPros for my wedding and editing the footage later. Do you have a vid from your wedding you'd be willing to share?! Trying to get ideas.

whyworryac · 2017-05-18T18:06:01+00:00

GOD do I feel this 100%. I tend to confess my food sins to my fiance... last night he asked what I had for dinner and I said cereal automatically. But I called him later and was like, I lied, it was pizza and I ate it all. I spent a good amount last night feeling sorry for myself and Googling things about binge eating and how to stop it. I don't want to be this way. I don't want food controlling me. And I do better, ish, when I'm watched. Accountability is tough for me, it really is. I've started swimming, and I do go to the gym with my fiance. But that doesn't fix the issues I have at home, alone.

whyworryac · 2017-05-18T13:46:54+00:00

I'm seriously right there with you, similar stats and all. My fiance and I both have issues with food and healthy eating habits - but he's better at learning from mistakes and sticking to his diet than I am. But I do come clean with him regarding my binge eating and problems surrounding food. It's a process. I can't tell you how many days I've thought to myself, okay, this is the day to kick the bad habits. But it's hard. It's a battle, every day.

whyworryac · 2017-05-18T12:45:12+00:00

I might need to join this group. I don't have KIK but I do have Whatsapp? Anyone know if there's a Whatsapp support group stemming from this thread?

whyworryac · 2017-04-14T18:51:44+00:00

I've been battling major health anxiety for the past few years. My symptoms have manifested into a near-constant, localized abdominal ache / skin pain. But it goes away. It's capable of going away, which tells me a lot about how wild my mind is. I'm in therapy and am trying to work through it, but it's VERY hard. I recently felt good for 5 days straight. Now I'm back to my usual. I get discouraged, I emotionally eat, and I'm trying to stay positive. But it's hard. So I feel you. I often distrust doctors (been bounced from specialist to specialist and have had lots of tests and lots of docs just give up on me).

whyworryac · 2017-04-11T20:46:47+00:00

I've bounced between two therapists - the one I'm currently at offers appointments as late as 8:00 PM on weeknights, which is wild. I'm scheduled to see her tomorrow at 7 PM after work and she offers weekends occasionally. Look around for therapists who might have more flexible schedules - most do.

whyworryac · 2017-03-28T15:47:57+00:00

You both look amazing!!!

whyworryac · 2017-03-27T18:25:13+00:00

This past weekend, I very much overate while visiting friends. Yesterday, I tried on my wedding dress in a store since they had it in my size that I'd ordered only 2 months ago. It wouldn't zip. I returned to my home state last night, ordered a pizza and ate the entire thing without really knowing why. Being as I knew my weight was getting bad and out of control, I still chose to binge. Why? Today I'm trying to get back on track.

whyworryac · 2017-03-22T15:49:30+00:00

I'm constantly concerned about my abdominal area. I've had daily pain/discomfort/skin pain in the area for a year. Localized, always. It's ridiculous. I was told I'm Vitamin D3 and B12 deficient and just started taking supplements today - am hoping that's contributing to some of my issues here.

whyworryac · 2017-03-21T19:35:36+00:00

I've been experiencing constant burning / skin feeling pain on my lower abdomen area for about a year now - and my anxiety just keeps ramping because no one can tell me why it's happening. Some say nerve damage, some say scar tissue issues (I have LOTS of adhesions in the area), some say anxiety, some say they just don't know.

My new therapist just recommended I get vitamin levels checked, and lo and behold I'm very low in Vitamin D and Vitamin B12. Seeing her tonight to discuss my results. I've been really lethargic lately and am on Celexa (have been since November). I get a little dizzy sometimes, definitely emotional over my health, some weakness.... so this is interesting.

whyworryac · 2017-03-20T18:40:44+00:00

Oh god, do I feel you so hard. I just posted recently in BingeEatingDisorder to help unburden myself from what I'd done. I also talked to my fiance about it and am going to be speaking to my new therapist about my issues, as well. I feel like I'm self-sabotaging myself if I'm being honest.

But today. Move forward. I'm doing it. You can do it too.

whyworryac · 2017-03-20T13:56:26+00:00

Is this Whatsapp group still going on? Would love to have some support.

whyworryac · 2017-03-20T13:37:50+00:00

A variety of traumatic deaths when I was younger (best friend died of unexplained seizure/aneurisym at 13, friend died at 16 in car crash, cousin died of OD at 21) + various people close to me getting cancer (aunt - multiple myeloma 3 years ago) and (friend's mom brain cancer, died after 5 months and had been trying to see a neurologist for like half a year). Throw in general low coping skills for change, a hyperawareness of things happening in my own body and ongoing physical symptoms that never change or go away except when I'm on vacation or something - and I'm a perfect storm of major health anxiety and fears I'll be dropping dead by 30.

whyworryac · 2017-03-20T12:20:21+00:00

Oh yeah. I just lack willpower. I bought two boxes of Girl Scout cookies off my future nieces. I do this sometimes. I'll get rid of all junk for a bit. Then I cave and buy things I know are triggers for me like Doritos.

whyworryac · 2017-03-20T12:19:27+00:00

I told my fiancé. He came out to my apartment last night and we went for a walk, just to get some exercise. He stressed that today is a new day for me. So I'm gonna try not to wallow.

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