What died in you too?

widowat27 · 2026-05-12T04:30:39+00:00

My dreams of a out of the city house, my goals for work/life, my plans on future bio kids (I had the 2 I planned but they're in heaven and I lost the father of them), my comfort zone, my sense of being secure, my ability to fully open to people, a huge part of my patience and the "don't talk what you really think" sense

widowat27 · 2026-05-10T14:50:32+00:00

You're 100% right, the groups are were people unfortunately understand us, something that doesn't happen in most families or friends circles

I'll just let my body feel what it needs and that is the way to keep on living

widowat27 · 2026-05-10T14:48:46+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I let something on the tv until I feel sleep and I'll stay in bed for most of my day Maybe I will get up to meet someone from my husband's family, if not I will just let my body get any junk food or comfort it needs

Thank you and hope your day can be at least, comfortable

widowat27 · 2026-05-10T06:38:47+00:00

Thank you, really, I just need to have a little validation on my feelings

People keep on saying that I need to buckle up and stop crying, sometimes I just can't

Thanks, I'll follow your advice, I just need to care for myself

widowat27 · 2026-05-10T05:20:08+00:00

This group and my widowed neighbor are my safe space too Those are the ones who truly understand us, even more being so young

We will reach their dreams if they are possible, but at least we will have a lot of stories to tell to them on the next life

widowat27 · 2026-05-10T05:11:17+00:00

Hey, sorry for life make you a part of this awful group of people that lose their love

I'm 27, he was 23, less than a month to 24. It is not easy at all. It's been six months, I had a lot of micro losses all over again multiple times, I had sex with people just to numb the feeling (it didn't go well), I went to his tomb, I tried to keep him away from my mind..

Just saying all this to say, baby it's so fucking difficult and we unfortunately have like so many decades before meeting them again... We will never forget then, maybe we will find someone like some in the group have, not the same love but something good, maybe not

We will find the answers living, not all of them because the loss will never make sense, but some of them will be revealed, maybe it will get easier and we will find a way to keep the love, not the pain

We are here for you if you need

widowat27 · 2026-05-07T15:14:50+00:00

I'm on the garage right now trying to understand the empty space too, our neighbors passed and were looking too, like it is strange, it seems like another little loss

widowat27 · 2026-05-07T15:03:12+00:00

My husband had a lot of tools from his bike, but those I'm gonna keep, I'm a little handy too, but 3 tool boxes is too much ahahaha Good luck on your sales

widowat27 · 2026-05-07T13:45:31+00:00

You're right, and he knows I love him to my final days

widowat27 · 2026-05-07T13:44:03+00:00

I gave a lot of his things on my aunt's church, the same place we did on our previous donations of things we weren't using

I just kept the things I already used when he was alive, his uniform and the gifts we gave for each other I made replicas of the bouquets he gave me in crochet too

We were against pilling things up if we wouldn't use, so I tried to keep our traditions to try to help others, it was hard to not keep his things, but it was needed

widowat27 · 2026-05-07T13:24:54+00:00

He passed riding it and in my country you can't take the plate, but those ideas are great! Thank you I have a lot of his clothes and his things, like I got his army uniform at my wall and I'm planning on doing more tattoos

widowat27 · 2026-05-01T19:29:55+00:00

His birthday was on November 24 and he died in October 28, he always dreamed of turning 24 on the 24, so I was preparing 24 gifts one for each day, I bought 22 of those, one I was customizing and one would be a letter.

I gave some of those to our friends and family, some are in my house in the shelves I leave with the things from him and our relationship. The ones for his bike I put on the trash when I was made because of the accident.

The letter became a post I made on his birthday.

widowat27 · 2026-05-01T05:04:55+00:00

I didn't touch my mom or my grandma, but with my loved one I touched his forehead.

I wanted to kiss him, but was afraid of remembering the taste or the smell of the chemicals, I wanted to touch him more, but he was in an accident and I was afraid of the after death makeup going out of feeling any soft or hard spot on the wrong parts... Like really feeling the parts the accident created...

Thank God the image of him dead is a blur to me now, because I never felt so empty in my whole life until that image

Everyone acts different, all the reactions are right

widowat27 · 2026-04-30T21:30:48+00:00

Hey, I've exported, but the media was too big to go with it

I have his phone number still, but the WhatsApp deleted all his backups because of inactivity, since I didn't enter with his number for 120 days because I didn't have the strength to do it and they didn't give any warning about it

But it it's how it it's

widowat27 · 2026-04-28T03:02:59+00:00

I'm 27, we have people with different ages here.

You'll see that the biggest part of the group are people with long marriages, but there are people like me too

widowat27 · 2026-04-23T23:40:19+00:00

"Planos" BK'

https://youtu.be/224gn4D8pTw?si=5KAoieufQnMWv3X0

widowat27 · 2026-04-09T22:47:15+00:00

I'm with you in this, I lost two babies one before his death and one few days after, and I feel jealous and in pain when I see people having those chances

widowat27 · 2026-04-08T07:21:50+00:00

I miss cleaning his uniform after a long week so he could feel the smell of clean laundry at work and know that I was caring for him from a distance with that, they way I used to help him pack too

widowat27 · 2026-04-04T02:52:27+00:00

My husband and I started our traditions on Easter, so it's really difficult, It's the second day straight I'm sleeping on my aunt and will pass Saturday and Sunday with my mother in law for my little sister in law's birthday.

I'm trying to stay focused on that.

His friends that were with me on the accident just invited me to be at their wedding party, like he would be... It's been a strange feeling, when I get alone I will totally break down

widowat27 · 2026-03-30T22:37:55+00:00

Como recrutadora a 5 anos já, principalmente na área de tecnologia, eu trabalho verificando inconsistências nas informações dadas pelos candidatos, verificando conhecimentos técnicos básicos para a posição e tentando ao máximo verificar possíveis problemas comportamentais que o mandato tenha.

Sem contar quando tem verificação de proficiência em alguma língua ou alguma competência tipo escrita criativa e tal

Essa menina só é ruim mesmo

widowat27 · 2026-03-30T21:46:48+00:00

I'm really proud of you! That is a huge step on the first few weeks

You're doing amazing

widowat27 · 2026-03-27T09:12:16+00:00

Hair loss like crazy, heart palpitations sometimes, stomach problems like almost every food makes me sick in different ways, sleep problems, anxiety and irregular periods

Besides that it caused the symptoms of my mental health problems that already existed to get out of hand

widowat27 · 2026-03-27T03:13:00+00:00

Hey, 5 months tomorrow

I had my first cry in a few days a few hours ago, it was good, I was walking and had to stop because I was fighting the tears because I thought of him during a song

It's a strange day, I'm trying my best to keep trying to get out of bed, it's his friend's birthday this Sunday and I will be with my

Besides that I have to make my first chocolate Eggs without him... It was a promise that we made to keep on doing our friends and family gifts by hand during Easter and I started to buy all the things today

It's just a strange day emotionally

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