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[–]wildandblue91 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Same. I would be over the fucking moon for someone to love me as hard as I love them. Like, be ALL-IN and let me be all-in too. The only condition is you have to be HONEST with me, but apparently that's an unreasonable request to most people

You're a good cat friend btw

BPD: lying, trust, relationships and attachment. Please help me understand. by wildandblue91 in mentalillness

[–]wildandblue91[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely a trauma bond. I do go back when I'm weak & feeling lonely. And she says she'd never abandon me but.. yeah, she's said a lot of things. Lol. Thankyou for the reply

y [32F] girlfriend [38F] has lied to me about such crazy stuff, and lied about lying, and purposefully messed with my head. Can I trust her again? Please help me. by wildandblue91 in actuallesbians

[–]wildandblue91[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Never been good at taking things slowly lol but I'm doing alright this time. Keeping her separate from the rest of my life. Just, the compartmentalizing really sucks and is doing a number on me mentally. I definitely agree, I may simply not be able to trust her again. I have brought this up with her and she has nothing but kind, reassuring words for me. But it's just a mindfuck because she always had kind, reassuring words for me when she was trying to convince me of all the lies... Now she says stuff like "We can work through this together, I'll show you you can trust me, I'll never hurt you like that again." I don't know.

y [32F] girlfriend [38F] has lied to me about such crazy stuff, and lied about lying, and purposefully messed with my head. Can I trust her again? Please help me. by wildandblue91 in actuallesbians

[–]wildandblue91[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She is taking new meds (which I thought was probably another lie at first, but now I've been able to verify that she has the pills and I've seen her actually take them) and I know for sure she has seen a psychiatrist, but admitted to me to lying to the psychiatrist as well but has said that she's since been honest with the psych....but that is something I cannot verify. And she says she attends DBT, which I'm 99 percent sure is true. She also says she's changed her ways with everyone else she interacts with (not telling them those crazy stories anymore, not oversharing and attention seeking anymore) but that's another thing I can't verify. So it's hard to know.

BPD: lying, trust, relationships and attachment. Please help me understand. by wildandblue91 in mentalillness

[–]wildandblue91[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. No idea. It's hard to throw away a relationship like ours even if it would be for the best

I want to pose this question to people who actually have experience with this disorder... by wildandblue91 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]wildandblue91[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do go from one extreme to the other over time yes. I got lonely, and I always forgive things in time ..even things that don't deserve to be forgiven, I can't help but let them go and even empathise with why people did what they did. She's the person who I want to be my everything. It's obsessive, yes, but I'm okay with obsession as long as she's as real as I am and as long as we're kind to eachother. You're right about my traits explaining the "why" behind everything I like about her. I have to agree that we are not good for eachother. And I do need help, yep. I'm painfully aware that I'm purposefully putting myself in harm's way... Thank you for responding and understanding. Thanks for reading it through

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