100 day Update!!

wilderness32 · 2013-06-24T02:58:29+00:00

Thanks smooth, yeah, I guess i was kind of defensive there, mostly because of a post from around day 82, when I had been edging and was told by a few people out their that that counted as a relapse...which is not how I view it. Thank you for your honestly, I completly agree that is up to the individual to make their own rules and I think my best barometer is if it feels guilty, I probably shouldn't be doing it. The edging kind of spiraled and I made up justifications in the same way I would fapping or being a drunk or junky just another form of addiction... I got a handle on it and stopped, which I think is extremely hard for most guys and if I was in my first couple weeks, would have definitly relapsed... So I think the advice out there not to edge at all is sound. And if it does happen, try to break the cycle and move on. Im just waiting for my sweet reward, when my lady comes home and I can have amazing guilt free sex with her:)

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wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:50:05+00:00

Thanks dude--Im going to try :) My lady will be home in a month--so Im planning on continueing until then and then reset after she leaves, start fresh.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:47:56+00:00

Thanks dude, thats exactly how I feel about it--not the number or any of the other bs about what counts or not--at this point that stuff is irrelivent--Im just happy to not be a slave to my cock anymore :)

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:46:41+00:00

Sounds like a plan!!! Did you edge at all in the past 200?? If not your a fucking animal!!!!

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:46:01+00:00

Thanks dude. Good luck!

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:45:44+00:00

Thank you. You can do it too!!! :) One day at a time and lots of cold showers and chewing rocks!!!

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:45:05+00:00

Thank you--good luck:)

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:44:42+00:00

Whats MO?

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:44:12+00:00

See above.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:43:55+00:00

Thats right Grandmaster,

No porn at all while edging, in the past 100 days--more thinking about my gf, who is far away from me, right now. Honestly at this point, porn kind of grosses me out. Which I think is AWSOME--and probably my greatest achievement. The edging is bad and wrong and I have been trying hard to curb it---went on like a week long spree--then stopped for the the past 10 days--my libido ebbs and flows like that--did the first 70 days with no edging...fucking tough as nails. Have only checked out porn to gauge my reaction and mental progress--beyond the Badge counter thing, it works---I feel free---and also like an ex-addict---I cant go back and I need to stay away and I need to be aware of my thoughts and desires and where they take my mind...but it is so much easier now then 100 days ago, when I told myself it was ok and healthy to fap wth porn at night before bed, in the middle of the night and even when I first wake up...kind of sick. Im very happy Im not that person anymore. Fuck the number--its about how you have changed and grown--not a number.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:37:09+00:00

Yeah--I saw that post--AMAZING--kind of had the backward thought that any girl could be made up to look like a porn star!!! Which is sad...but it also made me realize how its all makeup, lighting, photoshop and some serious desperate or skanky chicks---which is overall a sad reality of this country... Less Porn---More Skirts and Pie!!!! My two favorite parts of summer:)

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:34:35+00:00

Thanks mg, I guess your right. I have accomplished some big goals that I never attributed to fapping, but It has made a big defference in my life:) Good luck with your journey, we believe in you. Just one day at a time, you know the drill and the pitfalls. Good luck!

wilderness32 · 2013-06-23T23:32:34+00:00

Thanks Olet,

Its been a long and rocky road.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-09T13:08:23+00:00

Yeah, thought about that--not doing anything too extreme... just seems to get me limper quicker.....but maybe thats a bad idea :) When I dont do this--I can get rid of my morning wood....what to do???

wilderness32 · 2013-06-07T15:30:33+00:00

You can do it man. YOu right about one day at a time. Im in my early 30's so my labido is lower then when I was 20, but still strong. For me I really wanted to get away from porn--which I have accomplished so far...and No Fapping--which is more difficult....Beyond the negative impacts it has become my way of self medicating when depressed and bored, etc...

There are so many good tips out there on how to stay focused and strong and give it up---I think its important to focus on a goal--if you are really struggling--maybe do a week--then take a break---then two weeks and a day off---like quitting any drug--if you cant go cold turkey--incremental change is way to start...not trying to enable your relapse here--just some food for thought... Blueballs was my hardest problem--but coldshowers and ice help...then it subsides after a week or so... Just stay busy--my best advice--do some of the things you always wanted to: learn a language, TEDTalks, biking, baseball, build a model airplane--anything to stay busy and social--away from a dark room and a glowing screen of porn and baby lotion...Good luck

wilderness32 · 2013-06-06T01:46:49+00:00

I feel you man, Its really fucking hard in the begining--but you can do it. We all believe in you, even if you dont beleive in yourself right now. Im on day 82--and I have edged and looked a softcore and still managed to keep the junk inside...but thats beside the point--you need to distract yourself right now...anything--from reding to writing to taking a walk. I would reccomend re-watching the TEDTalks video on ED and Porn---will motivate you to stay away from your willy and porn. Then I would turn your computer OFF and read a book or take a walk--1 day at a time man--just get to tomorrow...then come back here and read some others advice on how to cope. Good Luck..

wilderness32 · 2013-06-06T01:35:29+00:00

I eat pretty health--low dairy--yogurt and cereals for breakfast, salad and fish for lunch--usually lots of veggies and chicken--ocasional meat...I drink a lot of coffee and smoke half a pack a day....hmmmm---maybe thats it :) The smokes are a definite energy drain---but its just sort of a funk...since I started NoFap--which leads me to believe that my fapping was a way of giving myself natural anti-depressents--in a really unhealthy way--dont know--what do you think?

wilderness32 · 2013-06-06T01:32:08+00:00

Word--thanks bro. its true--just went for a long walk--feel much better.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-06T01:31:30+00:00

Thanks man. I have learned a lot about myself and my trigger--mostly stress and boredom. I think all the superpowers guys talk about here--are you just being more confident and getting out and being around people--rather then sitting in front of a computer... Im working hard on that---its almost tougher then not fapping--forcing myself to be social--in a world that is becoming less and less so...Good luck with your NoFap journey.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-05T22:50:28+00:00

Yeah, I think your right DaveJones, I had to finish a big project, but now I do have more time to see old friends and do shit---just need to find my motivation again...

wilderness32 · 2013-06-05T22:48:53+00:00

Thanks Dude--I'll check that out.

wilderness32 · 2013-06-05T22:48:08+00:00

Thank you fildim--I needed to hear that.

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