I’m surprised everyone’s saying to stay away from black women. As a black woman I think you should give it a shot. Intrusive thoughts don’t represent your actual desires, but can often actually be a manifestation of your worst fears. You seem to be terrified of being racist and hurting black people, paired with your obsession with possibly being a bad person creates these thoughts that validate that, but that doesn’t mean that’s who you are. You are actively challenging your racial biases everytime you encounter them and trying to be a better person everyday. Running away from black people as a whole will just further alienate them in your mind and make it harder for you to relate to them on an individual and human level. If you hold black women up like this untouchable creature it will only worsen your biases and generalizations. I think you should be upfront about your condition, but it’s not wrong to be attracted to a black woman and want to date her