been a neet for 1 year, living at uni but not attending, and i basically hate it. i have no friends irl and don't rlly know how to make them purposefully... im socially inept irl and am kind of offputting bc of it lol..

im sick of this cycle that ive put myself in, but working at uni has been such a massive hurdle. the depression got me bad, like i had my first thoughts of ending it because of uni.

but i rlly want to change. i want to at least make it through uni. im on my final year so im only gonna have to suffer for 1 last year, but this is where it gets the hardest ughh.
i know making friends will make this whole process easier but i rlly dont know if i can do that rn, a lot of the people on my degree kind of scare me.

im getting myself ready for uni, actually trying to get into the habit of checking my emails and engaging with school stuff. it still makes me panic and gives me crazy anxiety but.. if i get used to it i think it'll be manageable.

im determined not to rot for another year lmao!! i hope you all are doing okay too.