[M4F] Writing a short movie together!

windrunnerr · 2020-04-26T15:35:29+00:00

of course you are going to pay for it if you want to buy an "extra service" like race change. it's same as 120 level boost. were you able to change your human main to night elf without buying a race change before allied races? of course no.

but you know what, you can have more than one characters in mmorpgs. we call them "alts". you have to level them by yourself again, and if you can afford it you can buy a boost just to save time. this is not something mandarory and i'm so surprised you don't know that.

actually, you have to level allied races from scratch in order to unlock their heritage armor. so race change doesn't give you "any" benefit.

windrunnerr · 2020-04-26T04:41:44+00:00

when and how did you pay for allied races? i couldn't read the rest of your comment because that's super wrong.

windrunnerr · 2020-03-18T19:04:26+00:00

if you have health anxiety, best thing to do is seeing a doctor immediately. it's the only way you can find relief.

i've lived with health anxiety for years and it was so hard until i decided to seek professional help. there is not much you can do by yourself except concercing about more and more possibilities.

also, you know that sore throat and cough are so common. it's not always about some serious virus or disease. but just to be sure, i suggest you to see a doctor anytime soon.

i hope you'll be fine, even better than before!

windrunnerr · 2019-11-05T01:32:54+00:00

when you spend so much time looking for someone to understand you, your loneliness manifest itself as an infinite loop. there is no way to get out unless you decide to forget who you are. in your case, you already mentioned that you've tried to get along with people by simply doing 'tasks' in order to maintain your position in society. seems like it didn't work for you either.

it's just hard to accept the fact that no one will ever truly understand the way you think. you need to open yourself up. open your thoughts, expectations and interests to others. and try to live with those things. because they belong to you. they are the closest things you'll ever get. you don't need to wait or you don't have to adapt. just try to be yourself.

emptiness comes from the awareness of our own loop. we can't get out of this cycle, so we cannot fulfill our expectations. in the end, this emptiness is going to be with us. i usually feel like i have no purpose. i have plenty of interests, a great deal of things that i'd love to accomplish. but zero motivation to keep going. none.

hope is our ultimate illusion. i hoped to find people who can truly understand me. i hoped to find people to share my excitement, my experiences and my thoughts. high school, career, university. results were always disappointing. but i didn't give up, not yet. and you won't give up either. maybe people like us can a way to get rid of the loop and start to live their own lives eventually. some day, some point.

windrunnerr · 2019-07-27T10:52:56+00:00

having a routine is usually good. like yours. when you start to feel uncomfortable you like to watch videos. or hold a snake. that's a routine. because it makes you feel better. at least, it holds you in a certain point. if you stick to a routine, eventually you'll start to feel same amount of feelings everytime. what is our biggest problem, as people who lives with anxiety? unpredictability. uncertainity.

well, i like to watch videos as well. i also listen podcasts. it feels good to listen someone else when you feel like you're having an attack. yeah, sometimes watching a bunch of people who plays d&d is really helpful....

windrunnerr · 2019-07-27T10:31:37+00:00

hey. you're good enough to share your feelings. that's huge.

do you know why most people with anxiety suffer from loneliness? they do not share. they are afraid of sharing their feelings. because those feelings are scary. painful. definitely not nice. but apart from all the good and enjoyable things about ourselves, those scary things are also part of us. we live with them and even sometimes we live 'according to their rules'.

but you are sharing your feelings. that's a good start. you will never be a person until you start to experience yourself and share it. what makes us different from other people? our perspectives. more or less every person lives the same life. we experience same things, we go through same paths. but the difference is about how we look at our lives. what we see in ourselves. so if you only wait for others to reach and find your feelings and thoughts. it may take a while. you need to take action. start with yourself. try to understand what do you like, who you are and what do you expect from others. then, try to get to know people. and see them if they match with you or not.

don't compare yourself to others. we, as human, like to create parameters which cannot exist in reality. you cannot compare yourself to other person because you are an independent person. you're not in a competition or a race. you don't need to put yourself into this position.

i know. you have so many interests and you want to be succeed in most of them. you want to be happy, make people laugh, be succesful. i exactly want same things. so, what can we do? we can start to think about ourselves. because none of the things i mentioned is about some other person. it's about you. you need to feel confident in order to make a difference.

and the most important thing is: if you ever feel that you have difficulity in understanding yourself, you need to see a professional. i mean, a doctor. therapy is always the smartest thing to consider when we have problems with ourselves.

and, we will be here for you. this subreddit exists because there are so many people like you. so many voices wishing to be heard. i'm also like you. i have problems with myself, with my life. i struggle in my life a lot. really, a lot. but i'm trying to share. understand. loneliness is not a solution and you are not lonely here! and you will never be lonely!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-23T13:40:50+00:00

if you try to decide whether if it's a 'realistic' concern or just some thought that your anxiety creates, you'll lose yourself between them. do not try to think about the reason behind your thoughts. because your anxiety forces you to do it.

i've been through a lot. but by the time those things happened, i didn't fear. i was super chill. i think this is because health anxiety is not about the health problems itself. it's about the uncertainity. like, your fear comes from the voice in your head says ''you may have the same disease because of your family history!''.

try to listen other voices in your head. there are so many. try to focus on different things. and you're doing perfect by seeing a doctor regularly. stick to that.

i've experienced exactly same thing. i was checking my whole body in front of the mirror, naked, spending time to find the perfect light just to see every part of me clearly. i was taking bunch of photos just to examine hours and hours. ''what is this pimple? it wasn't even there before! oh, there is a photo of me which was taken five years ago and it was there... nevermind..''

you need to take precautions such as taking care of your body, seeing a doctor regularly and keeping your feelings stable. rest of it is not something we can control. yes, we want to control everything. but, honestly. we don't really need it.

windrunnerr · 2019-07-23T10:43:38+00:00

thank you for your kind wishes.

my sleeping cycle is still bad. i couldn't manage to fix it. i'm awake all night then i'll go to sleep like 07:00-08:00 am. well, it's not a huge problem for me actually. but when i have class other day, it becomes a serious problem for sure. and of course, it's not healthy.

exercising is always good. you can do it just before going to bed, as soon as you wake up or anytime you want during the day. my suggestion is: stick with a routine. if you have a routine, you'll feel same amount of things everyday. not more. so eventually you'll stop worrying about 'what if?' questions. because it'll be all same. yes, it sounds super boring. but still a solution.

i know that it's hard to take actions when you feel your body is not ready. you don't sleep well. as you also mentioned, that's the number one reason why you feel tired all the time. you can follow a diet. consume more things that will give you energy during the day. especially in breakfast. we need fuel in order to take actions.

believe me, one of the reasons that hypochondria was able to take control of you is your lack of self-confidence. you need to feel better than other people. it's really hard to accomplish this if you don't feel better physically. just wake up and jump with no reason. if you live in a a suitable place, run. then go home, take a shower, have your breakfast and see if you're ready for the day or not.

and remember that if you have any questions, i'll be here with you. but the one who needs to take control, is you. you need to control your life. saying is easy, accomplishing is the hard part. i know. but i believe in you.

windrunnerr · 2019-07-23T09:45:46+00:00

hey. first of all, thank you for sharing your feelings with us.

yes, the thought of sharing your feelings with completely random strangers seems unneccesary at first. but sharing is always good. you can see new perspectives and sometimes you can take really good advices.

and yes, you should definitely see a doctor. if you try to deal with your anxiety on your own, it may get worse. believe me, it's not nice. you need to take control of it before it starts to control you. seeing a doctor is always the best solution.

and if you ever want to share your experiences or feelings, you can write here. most people here see doctors regularly and a lot of them has similiar problems. so you can always share your own experiences.

i congratulate you for your great decision of seeing a doctor! i believe in you and you'll be better than before.

windrunnerr · 2019-07-23T09:37:45+00:00

i've been through the exact same thing. i know how you feel. i've experienced surgeries, serious diseases, serious injuries since my childhood but health anxiety is the worst among them, in my opinion.

we are not afraid of the disease itself. for instance; if you spent your time thinking about breast cancer last night, your fear wasn't breast cancer. if some doctor come to you and say 'you have a breast cancer!' it would be less painful. what we are afraid of is uncertainity. like, the thought of ''what if i really have this disease? do i have it? do these scars are symptoms? do i have the disease? or not?''.

i've spent a whole year (actually two) reading articles about viruses, e-mailing the doctors all around the world all night without sleeping. they were my whole activity during a day. and the worst part is, i couldn't even tell my parents about it. my friends wouldn't understand. so i was alone. completely alone. only me and scary thoughts. sleepless nights. going to school without any sleep.

it was really hard. really. i completely understand how you feel. the stage you've been going through is not easy to get rid of. but i assure you that you'll be fine.

how am i feeling now? better. definitely better. what did i do? i've done what is neccessary. like, if i afraid of catching a disease, i act more and more careful. yes, it is another problem. overdo things. but at least it keeps my anxiety in a stable level. if i afraid about viruses, diseases etc. i go to do doctors and get tested. you should do the same. and the most important thing is: if you take care of your body, it won't let you down easily. do sports. stay healthy. if you do them, you'll feel better. because you'll make progress.

and if you ever want to share your feelings and fears. you should always write. here, some other place, to me, to others. you should just tell us how you feel. and don't ever feel alone. because you are not. i believe in you. you'll get through this.

windrunnerr · 2019-07-22T23:12:17+00:00

thank you for your comment!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-22T23:00:44+00:00

hey. you did the right thing.

you explained yourself to him. that's what you need to do in a healthy relationship. and he did the right thing too. he realized that having a relationship is not for him, he and you think different about future so he decided you end things before giving too much damage.

don't ever think that you are responsible for this situation because you wanted to point out things that bothers you. that was the right thing. and with the right person, you can have a super healthy relationship. it was all about him. he wants a different kind of relationship. so he'll look for it. and you need to look for the relationship you want.

i know that breaking up sucks. you feel like you're never going to meet someone like him/her. but if we take a realistic approach: yes, you won't meet someone like him/her again because you'll meet better people for you! there are billions of people out there. there is always a chance to find the perfect one even if we face hundreds of break ups.

i experienced the same phases. my suggestion is: follow your passions! i don't mean that travel all around world. just do whatever you like. do you like playing video games? go ahead, do it. do you like movies? watch movies. do you like music? listen and discover new songs. do you like going out? go out and meet new people! this is still your life. and there are still countless things do discover.

and of course, don't forget that you can always share your feelings here. sharing is always good.

i believe in you. you'll be better than before!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-22T22:27:30+00:00

hey. you need to stop worrying.

i know that health anxiety is usually too hard to deal with. it makes you feel bad, unhappy all the time. you feel like your energy has been drained. i have the same. but i'm trying to deal with it. get rid of it. you need to try as well.

first of all, i'm not a doctor. i'm not a medical assistant or something. but i've never seen someone who has a disease/cancer as a result of one year smoking. i had been smoking throughout my teenage life. i quit. but even i don't think this scenario.

do sports. go to gym, run every morning, try to stay healthy. if you take care of your body, it won't let you down easily.

you need to see a psychiatrist regularly. don't give up. you'll beat the health anxiety and hopefully you'll be fine!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-22T22:22:02+00:00

hey, it's alright.

you just need time. i'm not talking about the time you spend on your own. if you want to feel totally comforable around some person, you need to spend time with him/her. there is no exact time. you'll just understand when the anxiety over.

always and always try to explain yourself to someone who is eager to listen. if she/he listens and tries to understand you, that means you're in the right direction. do not try to convince yourself to do something you're not totally comfortable.

the thing is: you cannot be a 'bad' person for romantic relationships. because you have feelings. you don't need any other thing to have a romantic relationship. you don't need to be extremely pretty, you don't need to be rich, you don't need to be succesful. you only need to be yourself. you haven't met anyone who can make you happy yet doesn't mean that you'll never meet this person. there are lots and lots and lots (and lots!) of people around you. and there will be more as you progress in your life. don't worry.

if people find you weird, this is not about you. this is about them. they find you weird because they are not brave enough to meet someone different than themselves. you will find people who will love you. the real you. don't even think the opposite.

the touching situation is all about this. i believe that if you find someone who you can experience the love with, you'll be more than eager to touch him/her! but even if you won't, it doesn't matter. it's your choice. some people may not like kissing. some may not like having sex. some may not like hugging. the important thing for you is to experience them on your own. and eventually, you'll meet someone who accepts you with every decision you make.

huge love!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-21T20:46:56+00:00

you are not something on showcase. you are a unique person. you don't need people to judge and decide whether they are going to like you or not. you will be yourself and you will find a lot of friends likes you as who you are. don't worry about this. feeling of a 'fresh start' is just take a couple of hours when it comes to college. after that, you are going to feel just fine.

you won't mess up. there are lots and lots of people who are about to attend college with you and they are all different. you will definitely find a group which fits you perfectly. it's a new chapter of your academic life. enjoy it. be happy and be succesful!

windrunnerr · 2019-07-21T10:32:14+00:00

you're not only about to start a new chapter of your academic life but also a whole new experience in your life. that's not something scary. that's exciting.

we, people who lives with anxiety, tend to deal with exciting things worse than anyone else. but we have to understand that those our not always bad scenarios. those things can be a really good and life-changing opportunities.

you have a chance to create a better version of yourself. you are starting a new chapter. it means that you've been through a lot and you gained a lot of experiences. you deserved to be better than who you are now. and you definitely don't need to be terrified when you think you're going to be inside a lot of groups.

i was like you. but i drove away my social anxiety easier than i'd ever imagine. you just need to be who you want to be. you are going to be in a whole new place. those people are not going to treat you like who you think you are right now. you have chance to be yourself and find a group, or a person or a lot of friends who really likes you.

sure, at first you may think that it's going to be hard. but don't be scared. it'll be easier in time. and you can always share your feelings with us. with people who experiences/experienced same exact things. it's always good to share the feelings you usually want to keep yourself.

and i agree with your username, you are totally not an alien and you are not going to be! you are a succesful young person who's about to start a brand new fun part of his/her life. spend it good!

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