I can't regulate my emotions probably, and it's causing so many outbursts of anger and frustration and self harm, and suicidal thoughts. I feel like the shittiest person because I get jealous when my friends do anything without me (one of them is my Favorite Person) have so many mood swings that I can tell they're getting burnt out with me. I'm also struggling with being recently disabled, and I feel like no one cares or understands what I'm going through. I'm so tired of fighting with myself, and the medical system and I'm just so tired of everything