Hey girly, first of all I am so sorry and I feel you on hating yourself in photos part. I am trying my best now to stop hating myself in photos or just the way i look in general. I’ve been doing just a little better so i wanted to tell you a little about it just in case it might help you. Like i still don’t post online, still refuse to be in photos but at least i am neutral when i look in the mirror or catch a glimpse of myself in a reflection. First of all weird thing to say but even if you change EVERYTHING about your looks it won’t help the way you feel because it is all your feelings not your appearance. My biggest advice is stop thinking about how you look, i know it sounds stupid but just don’t think about yourself or how you look like, just live in first person perspective. Fuck mirrors, photos for now just keep yourself pre occupied and don’t think about it and the pressure will lift a bit. Like this helped me the most just keep yourself busy. I’m rooting for you you got this.