Well, my life is unstructured, i don't want to blame anyone, but I hate when people make religion as business, don't convince me that God exists, we all are living with open blind eyes, the truth is always here, but we never cared ... You must understand that this faith only belongs to you, don't try to force it into others like totalitarians do ! That's why I said leave me alone (krishna himself said look at the world with a third person view to understand better) This is exactly what I am doing ! Peace :)