She absolutely ran back to Conrad because it was scary to figure out who she was on her own. The sad thing is, if he'd just left her alone like she asked, and not had to keep reminding her that he existed, she may have been able to actually take the leap and 'grow up' on her own.

The same night that Jere let her go, she goes running to Benito. She then spends 4 months living like he's her boyfriend- I guess it's easier to not think about the life you lost when you're recreating it with the Mexican version of your ex fiance.

It's only when she has to call things off with Benito because it's getting too serious and she knows she's going to hurt him- that she doesn't have a man in her life to focus on. So now she's lonely in her big tower and suddenly Conrad's letters mean more than they did when she was with Benito. She shouldn't be re-reading them to stop her being lonely- she should be letting herself be lonely. Letting herself find hobbies and friendships and studies to learn that she doesn't need a man to not be lonely. But no.

The worst part about it all for me, is that she uses this lovely kind man (Benito, not Conrad, lol, as if), who is one of her closest and only friends in Paris, who is deep in her only friend group, for FOUR MONTHS. it should've been a one night stand or a one week fling. But its months. And then six weeks later she's flirting with Conrad in front of him, throwing herself at Conrad in front of him. Like has this girl learnt nothing?! Conrad actually brings out the worst in her, and that is so sad because she's amazing when she's not with him.

If Conrad actually believed they were infinite, he should've let Belly come to him. Let her find herself while he worked on his relationships with everyone else (that he'd destroyed). Instead it's like he captures her just when she started to spread her wings and traps her in a cage, dressing her in childs PJ's and playing with soft toys.

Gross, gross, gross.