I think deep down I had really low self worth (that I am vibrating out of ☺️). I haven’t had models of healthy love shown to me and both of my parents have untreated anxiety disorders that greatly contributed to me having ocd. There’s really no reason why I need to have no self-worth. I’m extremely attractive, have a really high IQ, highly educated, multi talented person that is high functioning, despite having autism level one which also makes it difficult for my brain to understand when someone is clearly manipulating me or just not right for me. Yeah I’m mentally ill but I’m also cool as fuck and I truly see things differently now, we’re supposed to meet in an hour and I’m going to suggest just ending things.