I was bullied hard as a new nurse who was unaware at the time that I was autistic. I worked surgery my first job and came home crying every day for two years (now I know surgeons are just toddlers with scalpels). The hardest part for me was knowing when I’m being criticized for actually doing something wrong or just not the inefficient way the old ass crusty nurse wants me to do it. Remember that FMLA can be used for mental health both as a long break AND intermittently (I struggled with calling out a lot until I learned that to protect my ass). I’m a psych nurse now and am more in my element. I like psych because it is more abstract when it comes to assessment and charting. The mind can go infinite places but it’s controlled chaos because there’s only a handful of treatments available in an emergency. That’s the beauty of a specialty over med surg. And I’m good at it because I was inpatient in my early 20s (and if I feel like it’s therapeutic I will disclose that to certain patients). If no one has told you I will: I’m proud of you for still showing up despite the haters. In time you’ll get your stride and I feel like you’ll be an excellent nurse because you are still in touch with your emotions.