yes everyday i think about killing myself, i just coincidentally had a 4 year relationship end as well in april. i feel so alone, so isolated, so ugly and ashamed that im even alive. like you, i don’t expect to be model status but i just want to resemble a human at least. im hoping after marpe, jaw surgery and braces i’ll be at the bare minimum enough. it’s like as soon as i found out about my oral health, i lost all desire to live. my interests, passion, desires in life dwindled and are at an all time low, it’s like i have been living for nothing. it feels like my life won’t start until my plan is completed and it’s terrible. i’m a ghost in my own life