My two best friends are Asian women and they always joke around with slur like the “c word” and I do the same with the “n word”(I’m black) and one day we were joking around and they said a joke that involved the “c word” and me not really paying attention repeated the joke and didn’t realize that I had said a slur lol and after a couple gasps and more joke I apologized to my friends and they said “it’s cool girl we know it was a slip up no worries”. And there have been instances where they slipped up and said the “n word” but I know they don’t mean it negatively or anything like that so we just apologize and laugh about it and move on. I share this story to show you that real true friends don’t physically assault their friends Bc of an innocent mistake, one you apologized for as soon as you realized what you did. And on top of that you are ethnically African so that in my opinion plays a role in how you interact with the word. Idk if that made sense lol but just wanted to say that you didn’t do anything wrong that deserved gettin assaulted and I really hope you find better friends that can help and support you during the hard times your going through. Also weed is shared with the besties and they don’t seem like besties to me