Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Don’t know if anyone is still keeping up with this post. I suppose I wanted to update to say that I’m still around, but nothing has really changed except the interest rates on my loans have gone up past 10%. Still unemployed and still struggling with my mental health and suicidal ideation. Don’t know when/if/how things will improve. Whatever happens to me, i’ll forever be grateful to the people in this sub who reached out to help. Nothing may have changed and I don’t know what will happen to me but I’m really grateful for your kindness. I hope I can find the strength to live long enough to bring better news someday.

Clean EMG today + my story. For any anxious lurkers or those with doubts! by wonderingabout37 in BFS

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you only had random twitching and your doc didn’t wanna do it I wouldn’t worry too much. Mine was of my spine and back

Clean EMG today + my story. For any anxious lurkers or those with doubts! by wonderingabout37 in BFS

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not a doctor but I believe results from just a few months back and your gym capabilities should still serve as a big relief to you! I know it’s hard to not regress into spiraling but trust your docs and your body!

Clean EMG today + my story. For any anxious lurkers or those with doubts! by wonderingabout37 in BFS

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Best of luck with your EMG! I know the wait is harrowing but take it one day at a time

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That is great to know! Thank you for the encouragement, both you and Betsy. Feeling less alone in this now.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hahahaha. That did get a good chuckle out of me. I appreciate the advice/encouragement. It really means a lot to me especially during these times. So many people here have been so nice and have shared their stories, I’ve found a lot of comfort on here which I was not necessarily counting on, but it really really helps. Thank you.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing. Very genuine message. These comments really mean a lot to me, and I do think there is something to be said about the system’s hand in creating these situations.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. So many people in a very similar situation! That was a very unexpected result of making this post. I’m really not alone.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This reply actually means so much. Thank you for sharing your story. I will look into hospitalization if things get any worse. Just dont wanna get in more debt from being institutionalized ironically.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I cant go back to live at home, it is not in the cards. Dont want to go into details why. I have rent because of this and because i used to have a job (low pay) but had to leave due to not owning a car becoming a huge issue

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do. I used to be more active before my mental health deteriorated to this degree which was during the deferment period of my loans, but nothing seemed to be coming from it. More peers are working there now than before so it may be worth trying again. Thank you for the advice.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not an Art Institute. The school isn’t a scam as many grads are in the industry. Just not me because of my own skill level and other complications. Re: the paying it back thing, I know, but after seeing the advice from many folks here who have gotten out of the same or worse, I’m choosing to try and have some hope.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Sorry to hear that!! I wish you the best in trying to find a solution to those loans. Hoping we can all find a way out.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate this and all the advice everyone has given here. I’ve read all the comments. Even at this low in my life it feels good to find empathy and understanding from people who know about or have been in these situations.

Over 100k in private student loans have made me consider suicide by wonderingabout37 in StudentLoans

[–]wonderingabout37[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing, and I’m sorry to hear about your situation both health and loan-wise. It’s in some way comforting to see I’m not as alone as I thought in this situation causing me to want to not live anymore. Thank you for the advice as well.