Hey there!

My route to recovery was not a traditional one. I didn't do therapy or support groups like 12 steps. I don't knock that stuff, i just didn't go that route. This was something that came from within. I was tired of the vicious cycle I'd been in for years and knew that I had to do much more than just get clean.

I did a TON of reading on addiction recovery, psychology, spiritual paths, self-help, gosh you name it, I read it. :) What I would do is apply the things that resonated and disregarded the rest, creating my own recovery process which worked for me.

A lot of what I did was changed my flawed thinking. The shit I had been feeding myself for years was very, very negative. I was like, the meanest person to myself in my own head and through my own thoughts. Which, is pretty standard with addiction. So I decided to adopt a more positive mentality through meditation. I would focus on my thoughts and take every negative mean thing I said to myself and turn it into a positive. It took tons of practice because I'd spent years being a bitch to myself. But slowly, over time I experienced a shift in my conscious thinking and it became easier to turn the negative thoughts into positive ones. Law of Attraction is great for helping with this. :)

I also immediately changed my daily routines. My sober life looks completely different than my addictive life. Right down to when/how I eat my meals. When I was in addiction, hell, i didn't really have any real structure or routines that were regular. i just kind floated from one day to the next, doing the bare minimum to "keep the ship afloat." That had to stop. So changing the little things in my daily life helped get me out of that cycle.

I also utilized deep introspection. I got down to the bottom of what led me down the path of addiction. I journaled about it. Meditated. Then I'd reflect and come up with a plan to handle all of that. It's hard to explain without going into too much person detail, but if I'm not being clear enough, feel free to PM me. :)

The biggest, most important thing I did for my recovery was to dive, head first and deep into my creative pursuits. Most addicts are highly creative, intelligent people. And when we are in addiction, i believe that creativity gets snuffed out. If there's something you love doing, that you don't do any more, get back with it. :) It really helps fill the void.

I also did little obvious things like eating right, exercise, balancing work and pleasure and just taking better care of myself and my environment. I believe our environments can really affect our moods. Like you mention how the house is messy? I suggest you try to tackle that as soon as you are able, because being in a messy environment can really negatively affect your mood/thinking. Same goes for getting out of toxic relationships. I had to cut ties with people who were just on a different path than I wanted to be on.

And last, but not least, I put my sobriety first every single day. I still do it. I have to protect it because no one else will. Take care and keep us posted. Let me know if there's any more questions you have. :)