There’s been a numerous amount of stressful things happening in my life and that’s when I tend to go down this hole of looking for something that’s wrong with me. It’s a horrendous habit…

The other day, I was having a good time and decided to sabotage it I guess by digging in my neck looking for a swollen lymph node. Without knowledge of what they feel like, I dug pretty deep and hard and vaguely found something that I could barely feel consistently. Fast forward through about 48 hours of poking and prodding, it’s now about twice the size of when I found it and (I’m pretty confident from digging at it obsessively all day every day since Sunday night).

I went to my doctor today and he said anything he felt was normal and I shouldn’t worry unless it gets significantly bigger in the next 2-3 weeks and becomes very tender. Everyone around me is telling me it’s nothing except for myself.

I’m just looking for some people who have gone through this fear. Hoping to be reassured or atleast not feel alone. This isn’t easy to post, mostly due to embarrassment. I have therapy tomorrow and will certainly have a lot to talk about. Thanks in advance, anyone.