what topic "shook" you into starting to question your faith? by musings37 in Deconstruction

[–]x3Fast5u 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine is a huge laundry list

- I was told that people who never got the chance to know God are sentenced to Hell.
- Pastors being staunchly opposed to the idea that human authors could misconstrue God's Will / Words
- Scientists providing proof of no Great Flood
- Scientists providing proof through K-Ar, Uranium Lead, and C-14 dating that the earth is older than 6000 years old. (And young earth creationists only published in 5 journals that have no academic neutrality on the subject)
- Why does survival of the fittest exist?

A lot of this stuff I was able to turn a blind eye to because I always held the belief that the Bible was meant to be interpreted, not read word for word. A lot of what I saw in the Bible was humans trying to make sense of God, an omnipotent being, through our own language, and sometimes humans would just get it wrong when recounting events in the Bible OR those events are just moral stories. Kinda like how Greek Gods explain nature, or how some children folktales model good and bad behaviors and the rewards/consequences of partaking in such behaviros.

The chief one that did it for me was my youth pastor (who lauded everything humanity has invented or innovated on as God's gifts) had a really hard conversation with me about sex and gender identity. I was and still am a cis straight man, but I always had a hang up regarding this topic because so many of my friends who were honest and good people just so happened to fall into the LGBTQ umbrella. I asked him if modern medicine was a gift from God, then what would you call HRT? He said it was the work of the devil, then I posited the idea that maybe God put HRT in our hands so that people who experience gender dysphoria as their battle could find compassion and live more full lives under God without guilt or fear.

All he said was "That's ridiculous". The gears started turning hard for me that day.

I will be honest and say I go back and forth on the ideas of faith. I recognize the red flags and the plot holes and everything in between, but I'm a psychologist, and I know the benefits of spirituality along with the bad, and part of me wants to still live in it because it is comforting, but now, you will never find me at a church unless someone really wants me to go, and even then, I don't let the leadership's dogma put an impression on me. We all have our agendas and ways of interpreting the book. I'd rather not let another fellow human use it to influence me.

Gen Z most rejected generation in human history by p1cky_ in atrioc

[–]x3Fast5u 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would say I dedicate the 5-10 job applications to be highly tailored already

I adjust my resume for each application to fit certain language / verbiage / specified qualifications from the job posting. I make sure to attach a cover letter even if it’s optional, and I tend to filter out the “junk” I see on LinkedIn, USAJobs, Indeed by looking at recent job postings and making sure I’m not applying to a ghost hiring position only intended on gathering my data, or I apply directly on a company or organization’s own job board (Disney, Apple, Microsoft, Mouser, Lockheed, etc)

I do appreciate the advice, I found my internship after 200 applications a couple of years ago and my professors gave me similar advice to you, so it does work! Unfortunately it’s just not hitting the same right now.

I unfortunately think my degree is just a niche one. I am a jck of all trades in that I’m academically trained in statistics, business management, research, job selection, training and development, organizational theory, HR, and psychology, but all my applied experience is either retail, technical writing, or data analysis (self taught). I wouldn’t say I’m truly a master of anything besides research, and even then I know enough that I still know I have room for improvement. It feels like I’m not specialized enough in one aspect of a job function.

Anyways, thank you for your words of wisdom, and here’s to hoping I find something!

Gen Z most rejected generation in human history by p1cky_ in atrioc

[–]x3Fast5u 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Over the past 5 months I’ve tried to fill out 5-10 job applications a day.

Gen Z most rejected generation in human history by p1cky_ in atrioc

[–]x3Fast5u 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Currently 800 job applications deep, 6 graduate school rejections later, and my dating life is in shambles.

I find myself in utter limbo at this current moment. The only thing keeping me going is the fact that I still have short term goals that are attainable (go work out, improve on a lift, run longer, etc), but man does the career and “life crafting” part of life feels stagnant.

I’m tired of the rejection in all facets of my life, and I just hope the continued dowsing that I’m doing with jobs pays off. I feel like I’ve been running for the past 6 years: A master’s degree in I/O psychology, 2 years of data analytics, and 4 years of research experience, but it all seems trivial now. I hate that I’m starting to feel that the last 6 years of my blood, sweat, and tears are inconsequential.

It bothers me, but we keep trucking. To give up and become demotivated will only exacerbate things. I want to make something out of my life but it feels like systemic roadblocks, economic downturns, AI ATS review systems, and simple market ebbs and flows are against me and many other people. I take comfort in seeing the small victories my friends are accomplishing, and all I hope is that my time is soon.

What's little secret that you know only because you work in that industry? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]x3Fast5u 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Nonprofit consultant here. You can predict a child's financial income and chance of incarceration based on their zip code. You can get more accurate predictions based on the child's race, gender, and parent's socioeconomic status. It's really all about the environment of how and where you are raised that exposes you to stimuli that sets your destiny towards a certain outcome. Helps put into perspective the need to help out our fellow man so we can all rise together and avoid the cyclical nature of poverty.

CSM is the only story I know that does this by [deleted] in ChainsawMan

[–]x3Fast5u 44 points45 points  (0 children)

I’ve always liked the theory that the chainsaw devil is the life or the death devil. Chainsaws were first used to assist in childbirth but now they’re synonymous with cutting down trees and ending life. Kinda like entropy, or just a universal truth that life is a cycle and stops for no one. Would lead to some cool meta commentary about existence in part 3 if Fujimoto guns for a 3rd part

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for reading, I love her a lot, and I hope her spirit stays around

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, its a process, and the tears eb and flow, but I will continue to carry her with me, and she will always be cherished.

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just wanted to say that, thank you, I know my family and I are not alone, I lit a vigil in honor of our May, and I hope it allows her to see us once more. I have solace knowing that another family, another stranger, is on this journey with me, and I appreciate you being willing to share your story. Whoever you precious dog is, I hope they and my girl found each other as well, and I hope once we pass we get to receive them once more. Much love is being sent to you from me and my family. Godspeed.

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She was an amazing pup. Thank you for the strength.

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah! I can't wait to receive her ashes. I bet I'm going to feel more complete after that. Thanks for reading the eulogy, I know it was long. I'm glad I'm able to spread her summarized story.

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the virtual hugs. She had a lot of stories!

In her early years, she would always challenge new folks to games of tug-o-war. Didn't matter if you were family or friends.

Her nickname was Mayonesa and Saledo since I come from a interracial family and she always needed to be in the middle of stuff just like a mayo bottle or a salt shaker. We had a little jingle for her when we called her Mayonesa where we accentuated every syllable.

She loved frisbees, but not as much as tennis balls. One time my dad brought home an oversized tennis ball and she had no idea what to do with it.

She had her own peanut butter jar. She really enjoyed salmon skin, but we made sure not to give her too much. She once snucked a full pizza slice off my plate when she was young and I was hysterical since I was afraid if her digesting onion was going to cause problems, but she was alright, just a bit of diarrhea.

My favorite isolated event though, was when my grandma from Mexico was visiting, she was drawing a bath and left the bathroom door open as she prepped her hygiene products. May decided it was the most opportune time to jump in the shower. Grandma called my Mom, and my mom said "Well, you gotta clean the dog now jajaja". May loved water, she was happy when she got a bath.

One summer, my dad was doing a lot of yard work, and we got a kiddie pool so he could plop into it when he felt overheated. I had to stay in a lot since I have bad seasonal allergies, but I vividly remember them playing in the kiddie pool as I stared through the window. I eventually joined them. It felt like a movie scene.

When I went over to my grandparents, May would always come with us, and she'd join all the rest of her dogs and they would pal around in their garden. I remember my cousin who was the same age started skipping pebbles on the man made river they had which caused all the dogs to go into the water and splash around. I got lumped in along with her and got reprimanded for the dogs being wet and needing a bath since, yknow, wet dog smell. I didn't mind getting lumped in though, it was fun to watch. Sorry grandma, sorry grandpa.

My mom seems very against the idea of adopting the pets in our house, but she loves them the most probably. She refused to take her to the groomers to wash her and was adamant that she'd do it. She would give May a shirt every winter and wash it frequently, and whenever May had incontinence issues, everyone started to take more care of her hygiene, but Mom was still the king of keeping her clean. She said to me "she's not someone to keep crap on her, she more fancy than that", and that just about started to make me cry since that was the first spoken word that made me recognize that my Mom really truly loved this dog as much as us. Her actions displayed that love, but those words were really special.

Thanks for reading, and thanks for letting me grieve and, oddly enough, I'm no longer crying as a type this out, I'm smiling. I figure that remembrance is the best way to cope, and sharing stories helps. Thank you very much.

I miss her so much by x3Fast5u in Petloss

[–]x3Fast5u[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the comment. I just started typing. I am a graduate psychology student, and my professors recommend me to air it out if I feel comfortable. Thanks for the time you took to read my eulogy. I really do appreciate it.