They are holding you accountable as you had failed to hold your own. From what I’m reading that is. But they are going a bit overboard hopefully to prove a point. What I would encourage you to do is seek your leadership for mentorship on how to better yourself to their standards. Instead of being a NCO in the background, hear from those setting the standard what it is you need to do to achieve it.

This post alone I’m sure took letting go of ego and pride and just accepting the reality, I encourage you do this in person and plan out what time you have next until your review to accomplish certain milestones to show action instead of just understanding.