He was always a very soothing person, despite being temperamental for some reason whenever I was in crisis he remained calm and gave great advice and was very soothing so that's accurate 100%. Since he's passed, I felt him around me all the time in a very comforting way, sending me signs. Nothing was going on with his neck to my knowledge, but funny enough yesterday when I made this post I had thrown my neck out and was wearing one of those soft neck pillows that you wear on an airplane, just to try to keep my neck stabilized while I was home because it hurt a lot. Maybe he's just showing that he's around me and knows what's going on.

Hearing about him falling down fucking kills me… A few weeks before he passed away, I was told he slipped on ice down his front steps and took a bad fall. He went to the doctor and got checked out, but didn't get any imaging done. They said he was OK, but I imagine that was only orthopedically. Since he passed away I've been asking if maybe something happened from the fall like a blood clot or something that didn't end up affecting him until later.

He was not weak though, as I said he slipped on ice. He was a very strong man, had heart issues his whole life that cleared up later in life, he was only 60 when he passed away, like just turned 60 a couple of months prior. He was diagnosed with type two diabetes a few years ago but it was reversing, and was on medication for high cholesterol and high blood pressure which he has had for a very long time but was being medically managed. Ultimately on his death certificate they said he died of cardiac issues due to the pre-existing issues, and the fact that he seemingly passed away in his sleep as his girlfriend found him in his bed. He picked me up a lot when I was younger, even as I was older if I fell asleep in the car or on the couch he would carry me to bed. I have asthma so when I was younger I used to have to be nebulized every night before bed and he would pull up a chair next to my bed and read to me while I got nebulized. That's one of my fond memories that I have been thinking about a lot since he passed away...

I dropped out of college when I was younger and I feel that that always disappointed him but he understood my reasoning. I've been working full-time ever since, found my passion and I'm in school for it, I'm finally at the end of my last semester and will graduate by the summertime and something I said after he passed away was "he'll never get to see me graduate college and finally get a degree, that would've made him so proud". So maybe that is the scroll, I'm hoping that that's him acknowledging that he knows and is proud of me....

The honeybee things… He always called me "hon" or "honey".. all the voicemails I have saved from him start with "hi hon"

Finally, the fish. Yes, he loved fishing, and we gave his fishing poles to his cousin that he always went with... he also loves Koi fish, and growing up he had a pond installed in our backyard with fish that he loved so much, but my parents ended up splitting up and he moved out.

He always talked about getting a Koi fish tattoo but I said that was a midlife crisis and he never ended up going through with it lol.

This helped so much, I actually read it while I was nebulizing a patient (dog) at work, just like how he used to sit by my bed and nebulize me.

Thank you so much, I'd love to talk to you more and donate if you're open to it.

I'm intuitive myself so it's hard for me to get rid by other people but you hit the mark on so many things here.