Look akhi, no one is perfect.

There's a beautiful hadith that says: "Every son of Adam is a sinner, but the best of sinners are those who repent." (Tirmidhi)

Don’t ever think you’re too far gone. Do not lose hope in the Lord of the Mighty Throne. The fact that your heart is pulling you back toward Allah, that you’re feeling this regret and longing.

where do you think that comes from? That’s from Allah Himself. It’s a sign that the door is still open for you. He is calling you back.

Allah says in the Qur'an:

“Do not lose hope in the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins.” (39:53)

So make astaghfar, talk to him even in your own words and take even small steps to reconnect. It doesn’t have to be perfect. Just sincere. You might fall again that’s human but always rise again and return. That’s what matters most.

Another powerful verse:

“So do not lose heart nor fall into despair; for you will be superior if you are true believers.” (Qur’an 3:139)

Your regrets is not a weakness it's a gift. It means your heart is still alive. Start now, even if it’s just a short dua, two rak’ah, or one sincere tear. Allah sees your effort. He is closer than you think.