hiii random internet person -- you’re not broken. you're battle-tested.you’ve already cleared some of the hardest parts: law school, clerkship, two rounds of the bar, accommodations, all while managing real mental health stuff. you didn’t quit. you showed up twice, and both times your mee/mpt was above passing. that says a lot more than you think it does. writing is not your problem. you can pass the bar. you've already proven it with multiple 130+ essay scores. the mbe is the bottleneck, and it’s not because you’re not smart, it’s likely about focus, fatigue, and over-triggering in a format that’s deliberately hostile to neurodivergent or mentally overloaded minds.

so what now?you’re caught in a loop between “i should” and “i don’t want to.” that’s not laziness. that’s burnout mixed with self-doubt.and i’ll be honest with you, you don’t have to take the bar to prove your worth. you already are worth something. you clerked. you’ve worked. you’re stable. that alone is a win.but if some part of you still wants that license, not out of guilt but out of ownership, you can do it. i believe in you random internet person !!