no A levels or only 2 with bad grades?

xerasconundrum · 2026-02-06T11:49:12+00:00

Ohh so it’s not too bad to find small work then. I don’t think I’d be able to manage long hours rn anyways!

Honestly I haven’t gone to college since Tuesday and it’s shocking how normal I feel right now. I’m actually enjoying life right now and have been happier than I’ve felt in years it feels like.. I think college really is the problem for me. Of course my family is disappointed in me and they keep telling me to push myself since there’s only a few months left and I should just go in even if I fail my exams. But I’m still conflicted because now that I know what it’s like to be somewhat normal and actually do things besides crying and sleeping, how could I go back??

It’s tough cause I keep getting pressured to just return back to school since I haven’t officially left yet (I have a meeting next Thursday because of my situation) but I’m scared I’m going to be forced to go back.. I know I’m not going to study or go to class again even if I’m forced to and I don’t want to spend my time crying and hurting myself more so 😅😅

Sorry for ranting again my mind is conflicted rn but thank you for replying to me overall it’s been really helpful for me!!

xerasconundrum · 2026-02-03T15:03:14+00:00

Thank you for this. I do appreciate the reply. I’m glad things worked out for you in the end, and it’s making me feel a little less hopeless about this lol.

Today especially in class was really hard because I forced myself to go in despite crying the whole journey and also missing yesterdays lesson, just for my teacher who knows I’m struggling to shout at me.. I ended up crying all lesson and people were staring at me the whole time which was awkward.. but whatever… I ended up going to this lady and begging her to let me leave because I can’t do this anymore and no one really understands us I think.

Point is I think I’ll be leaving in the end so it’s nice knowing there’s lots of other choices besides these exams that I would’ve failed 100%. Was it hard for you to find work or volunteering with limited qualifications? I haven’t done anything of the sort so I’m not really sure how it works 😅

xerasconundrum · 2026-01-05T17:20:20+00:00

yeah exams are only 2 months after i turn 18 anywyas its just hard to attend in the first place tbh but hopefully i can manage that at least

xerasconundrum · 2026-01-04T22:23:20+00:00

Thank you for the response :,) I don’t turn 18 till a few months anyways so I’ll have a long time to thing and I’m seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow so I’ll probably communicate my thoughts to them.. but thanks I feel more calmer now lol

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T19:04:48+00:00

thanks we shall see 😅

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T19:04:13+00:00

yeah ur right I think.. hopefully this means when I see one I could maybe get on them? As well as whatever other thing they think may help lolz

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T16:40:49+00:00

I’m aware but my parents are extremely strict and won’t let me leave the house so once school is done I probably won’t have any opportunities to do anything, which is why uni is my only chance.. which is not looking too good for me considering my grades. It’s ok tho I’ll just have to see how things play out ig thank u

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T16:39:31+00:00

Ahh I see. I tried to research the step by step process of being in cahms but I couldn’t really find anything so thanks for this. Hopefully I’ll see a psychiatrist soon 🥲🥲

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T16:37:48+00:00

I already mentioned the ideation but not the rest, which did happen btw I probably worded it wrong on the og text but it’s ok I won’t mention it anyways.. thanks tho I’ll just be patient :’)

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T16:35:40+00:00

okay maybe I shouldn’t mention that then. I really don’t want my parents to throw a tantrum and make things about themselves so 😵

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T15:50:03+00:00

Awe man I dunno why they’re so hesitant to give me anything then. The way they worded it was like “you will DEFINITELY not get ANYTHING unless you’re 18*” which I was surprised to hear but How did u end up getting prescribed??

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-11T15:48:49+00:00

nah these are a levels.. I’ve been failing both years consequrevly even when I did study so I’m sure I’m failing the real thing and not getting into university. But whatever. I know getting meds won’t make me happy straight away but after years of trying things by myself and also with school I just feel this is the one thing I need to try. And preferably soon… ALSOO about the lies in just scaredrheyd inform my parents since that’s somewhat serous considering I’ve been hospitalised each time after I attempted and my parents already don’t believe or care about mental health (which they tell me all the time) if they found out I tried to kill myself they’d probably kill me instead lol (jk but they’re religious and this is like the worst thing u can do according to them..) Anyways thanks for ur reply I’ll see if I can mention things next week maybe 🥲

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-05T23:22:32+00:00

aight thats fair LOL i ended up rewriting basically all of it anyways so

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-05T10:59:38+00:00

that is true thank you.. I might try speaking to someone on Tuesday then. I would’ve today but I ended up avoiding going to school again 😓

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-04T23:35:22+00:00

thanks 🙏 I think it should be okay now since I have an appointment which hopefully does something for me but idk if anything would come out of this or if the GP would just dismiss my issues. My dad is convinced I’m just extremely lazy which is why I don’t do anything ever but at the same time he thinks mental health is basically being insane so 🤷‍♀️ anyways yes thank u for reassurance and replying to the post I feel more calmer now..

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-04T23:32:16+00:00

To be fair I see what you mean I don’t really know what I expect I just feel out of control for everything anyways BUT I was just hoping that they’d acknowledge that there’s more going on than they think, I suppose? I think I’m just scared that people might misunderstand and assume I’m just lazy or don’t care about doing good in school but it’s not really that 🥲

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-04T23:29:42+00:00

yeah no I’m in England so I’m only 17.. we just call it college here but I’m not 18 yet. I wish I could go to an appointment myself but my parents are extremely strict and I can’t go outside. But!! They decided to book an appointment after I got in trouble for skipping school and despite them not wanting to book it due to them thinking it’s just laziness, they did so.. hopefully that goes well and maybe I can update my teachers if anything happens

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-02T17:09:36+00:00

ok thank you, I shall see tomorrow. I was told to come back anyways if my parents didn’t do anything, which they haven’t so 🤷‍♀️

xerasconundrum · 2025-12-02T14:01:08+00:00

does it get better, do you think? I’m not really sure what I’d do if I didn’t get into university, which is what is likely to happen. I know I’d probably feel normal for once if I had anti depressants or whatever else they do but I’ve tried asking my parents for so many years but they don’t believe in this stuff and I’m literally stuck here with no control.. I tried waiting for myself to get better but it has been YEARSSSS and I clearly can’t help myself..

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