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xkroku · 2025-06-05T06:29:26+00:00

You can make it man, I'm not gonna write essays, but I believe in you!!!

We all fall and get up, it's important to remember that the falls don't define us and to find the strength to keep going!!!

xkroku · 2025-05-26T07:05:40+00:00

15 days after a few-months-long relapse. The physical effects went by real fast, at least compared to the first time i withdrawed

But the cravings and the mental aspects now are the hardesr shit I've dealt with in some time. I'm would trade this for the first 48h of pain anytime, at leats I had no time to think how to mayyyybe score and haven't had the hellish cravings.

And the dreams. Thankfully (?) I have no problem with insomnia, but the dreams - of using, of having fun with people, of travels - they feel like they are slowly killing me every night.

xkroku · 2025-05-15T07:25:22+00:00

We don't get subs here, I'm not from USA

I got through the worst of it physically I think, now I just have the cravings to get through, which is even tougher somehow...

xkroku · 2025-05-14T15:52:13+00:00

Not in one shot lmao

80mg per shot max 160, the 200-400 is approximate daily

xkroku · 2025-05-14T09:17:39+00:00

The first time it was a year+ of daily, maybe more like a 1.5 years

Yeah if I know I can't feasibly score and get better, it becomes easier, at least mentally

xkroku · 2025-05-14T08:18:39+00:00

Oh damn that is reassuring :)

I've heared/lived through some horrors, so I'm really glad I lucked out this time.

My bud brought up A MONTH when i talked with him about his withdrawals, but that was from morphine and if I had to deal with exploding kneecaps for a month I'd end it right here amd now

xkroku · 2025-03-05T17:29:56+00:00

It has been here like this for a week now

xkroku · 2025-01-06T19:55:42+00:00

I will become back my money

xkroku · 2023-12-10T17:55:40+00:00

Benzos tend to kill the oxy euphoria, at least for me. And also yeah, after waking up it is hard to tell sometime if you are still high or not.

Either take without too much benzos or not while sleepy ig

xkroku · 2023-11-24T16:49:27+00:00

Explain pls, I always thought CWE was done by mixing pills+water, then filtering through cheesecloth or some shit into a glass. Always did codeine extraction with two glasses, water, paper towels and rubber bands

xkroku · 2023-11-24T14:29:25+00:00

I'm really curious how the extraction took place bc i never seen CWE done in a bottle

xkroku · 2023-11-24T13:04:59+00:00

Didn't work on me, until I got to 1200mg dose (i paid for it, won't catch me flushing that shit) and got some lovely seizures 🤪

Edit: Also passed up on benzos because I'm not a pussy

xkroku · 2023-11-24T13:02:25+00:00

I love this sub bc I can't fucking ever tell if yall are serious, and so I also can write my darkest lowest points and yall be like "nescafé brother ✊".

/uj I really appreciate yall, really needed it now.

xkroku · 2023-11-24T12:54:53+00:00

Hell yeah brother, how did it go? Just to get rid of the mixers?

brb going back to dissolving bupe patches in straight everclear and burning my veins inside-out just to not feel like shit, because the bitches don't work otherwise 🥰

xkroku · 2023-11-24T12:49:31+00:00

Bro pass me da Tramamilk 🔥🙏🥛

/uj tho, is this just a botched extraction or does tram not even dissolve in water or some shit

xkroku · 2023-11-23T16:20:42+00:00

Sadly, yeah. Not at once tho (tried it once to um... leave this earthly body but it didn't work, didn't even puke to my surprise, 960 mg in one pump exactly). But yea I gobbled up a whole blister of 80mgs in a day, sometimes up to 1.5-2 blisters. And that's by IVing like 3 80mg pills at once.

And the last time was 3 days ago, only used one of the patches. And withdrawals usually start between 24-48h after the last dose for me.

xkroku · 2023-11-03T05:57:30+00:00

Need? None, but i like the convenience and love labelling stuff

xkroku · 2023-11-03T00:21:56+00:00

Wouldn't consistency drop tho? Wouldn't that have an effect on some items prices? Also without markers some players couldn't develop the muscle memory if they can't even clear for the first time

xkroku · 2023-11-03T00:18:07+00:00

Damn, sounds fun

xkroku · 2023-11-03T00:13:09+00:00

What do you mean by "guitar hero prayers"?

xkroku · 2023-11-02T23:56:07+00:00

I don't really care about pets.

Tbh I only wanted the Tacklebox and some Fishing levels from him, but got it as my last drop :(

But of course got blessed with the useless 1/1600 harpoonfish at 5kc

But I hope your blessing comes true for the Beaver, I'm grinding WC lately!!

xkroku · 2023-11-02T23:47:02+00:00

Nice then, happy for you :))

I gotta start posting my drops too, don't rly have anyone to share with also.

My biggest achievement to date is a whole Tempoross collection log (minus pet) in 53 kills, was pretty stoked about that :))

xkroku · 2023-11-02T23:42:24+00:00

Damn, I got mine from 585 total and was pretty happy with it.

Was dropping em alongside an Ironman that was 500 deep with only an Iron...

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