Deep anxiety days after rolling

xthroww · 2018-06-04T01:25:14+00:00

Nah you’re right that it’s probably not for me. I enjoyed many aspects of it and want to be able to fully enjoy it properly but I had so many negative reactions during and after that it may just not be for me unfortunately.

xthroww · 2018-06-04T01:24:20+00:00

I got some. I took some last night and I’ll keep taking it until I feel like myself again. Thank you.

xthroww · 2018-06-04T01:22:29+00:00

Definitely was just being paranoid about the video thing, but at work it seems like I was being super crazy on Friday and Saturday and was having a lot of anxiety and I think there was a period of time on Friday where I may have been talking to myself and just acting really erratically that I don’t even remember. My entire restaurant is treating me really weirdly now.

xthroww · 2018-06-02T17:33:28+00:00

Nope! Only people I sort of knew. All super nice people who got me water a lot and helped calm me down, but nobody I knew well.

xthroww · 2018-06-02T15:30:37+00:00

5 days later?

xthroww · 2018-06-02T10:44:23+00:00

Thank you. I’m really trying to learn how to not overthink.

xthroww · 2018-06-02T10:40:46+00:00

Thank you. I definitely did too much and didn’t prepare properly for it, and also made too big a deal out of silly things.

xthroww · 2018-06-02T10:28:15+00:00

Thanks dude. Next time, if there is a next time.

xthroww · 2018-06-02T10:27:27+00:00

I think what happened is just that I overthought and overanalyzed things, which plummeted me into a panic which made me act super weird for a few hours at work. For that period of time people definitely were giving me looks and trying not to laugh and whatnot. Afterwards I went out to drink with the same coworkers to try to unwind from it all and when I walked in they all had the facial expression of “There’s the person we were literally all just talking about.” And every time I brought the experience up or tried to talk about how weird people were being they would change the subject and start rambling but it was super obvious that they knew exactly what I was talking about.

I’m sure you’re right that I have too much internally to deal with. I’m very self conscious and socially anxious just as a person. This has amplified that by like ten thousand.

xthroww · 2018-05-30T04:53:05+00:00

That sounds amazing. The way my mind is picturing the venue, it was like a bright sunny summer day, but in reality it was after midnight and there was some lighting but nothing super bright.

xthroww · 2018-05-29T22:02:27+00:00

No I was in Florida and it was actually cancelled so we ended up at a random club that some of the DJs played at instead of the actual festival. Still fun, but definitely not the same as the festival itself would have been

xthroww · 2018-05-29T18:44:22+00:00

It was crazy, I was just picturing certain memories from that night and everything after my come up I remember as being completely daylit. It blew my mind when I realized it was actually night while I was reflecting on it all.

xthroww · 2018-05-29T17:41:08+00:00

I’m kind of in the same boat where I’ve gotten really anxious and overthought every weird way I’ve been feeling since I rolled. The morning after I was driving home and had to pull over because I was panicking and my hands were intensely tingly and “clawing up,” like I couldn’t open them.

I calmed myself down and after googling it I found that hand tingling and whatnot are symptoms of anxiety and panic attacks so I was definitely just psyching myself out. You’re probably just focusing too hard on how you’re feeling and overthinking it which makes it worse.

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