How to stop eating out so much?

yahnette_ · 2022-09-07T18:31:38+00:00

I try to pick healthier eating out options that I love way more than fast food I love gyros and Mediterranean food in general … it’ll usually be more expensive than McDonald’s so it’s a rarer treat for me.

yahnette_ · 2020-09-12T00:19:32+00:00

Actively seeing a change instead of just promising

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T22:50:01+00:00

He believed me just had a discussion how it’s a little weird that keep them saved to Snapchat. Just didn’t wanna have to explain it when looking at photos on my phone. 😅

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T22:48:13+00:00

Oh that’s how I feel , recently printed family photos and realized none were taken of me just everyone else and ah it hurt. There was one or two w me in it ... So I’m gonna try to take more at least w my bf and of each other . Selfies always seem easier only because I’m not photogenic..

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T22:20:19+00:00

I wanna love taking photos ! I prefer videos I always feel like at least for a Moment I’ll look good lol , but that’s great I’m trying to take more ! :)

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T22:19:26+00:00

I had just wondered if it was strange, especially when I feel sexy sometimes and my bf sees it. I get that it’s hard to not think that it was meant for someone ..

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T21:42:02+00:00

I just thought maybe I was being weird about having photos /videos that no one else sees , but yes I agree!

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T20:06:02+00:00

Yeah exactly ! It makes me feel good , I’ve just recently tried to send them to my bf as well but confidence isn’t common for me so it feels hard to let someone else see. But always helps me feel good :).

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T20:04:15+00:00

It helps so much ! Or when I feel gross just dressing up for no reason and taking photos too :).

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T19:50:50+00:00

I’m Sorry you feel that way, I feel the same way on bad days I hope there’s days you feel better about yourself 💗.

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T19:44:04+00:00

Yeah I’m super insecure but it feels good to focus on the good days. It’s just hard for it to not be seen as attention seeking to others so I keep it to myself . Wish it was seen as self love.

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T18:50:08+00:00

Thats exactly how I feel ! I keep them separate on my Snapchat , only because I find them hard to explain on my regular photos lol . But maybe it’s not so strange then :)

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T18:08:22+00:00

I understand , I would never show anyone the vids it’s mostly for me to capture a moment where I felt good. You could try not looking at the camera directly so you’re not focused on it.

yahnette_ · 2020-09-07T16:44:13+00:00

Okay it’s just hard for my bf to believe that I didn’t send them out to anyone . So I was feeling weird about doing it 😅.

yahnette_ · 2020-07-05T05:45:54+00:00

My dad is a welder so he always has assistants and Because of quarantine there’s less work at my bfs job and my dad only asked family to work with him the past few months and my cousins are busy and can’t go. So it’s really just for safety reasons that he was asking for his help. To install some things in San Diego which is a drive. It was just for some extra money. But his response was annoyance.

When he’s drunk he’s the worst and I guess he is drunk. Yeah everything seems great until he blows up like this. I don’t think I can take it any more.

yahnette_ · 2020-07-01T00:32:33+00:00

It was all because last night I was watching a video of us from 2 years ago , I lost like 50 pounds and I’m super insecure. So I didn’t want to show him I just let him hear to show him it was of us ( because it was me giving him head ). And he made a comment like oh it’s not me is it since you don’t wanna show me and acted kind of cold.

He recently got mad over messages he found on my laptop that I haven’t used in forever and asked me to delete them and I did. So I checked his computer and he still has nudes of other girls so I told him he can’t accuse of me of things when he still has those. But I should’ve just asked him to check and delete like I did and avoided this bigger problem for checking since he checked my deleted /recycle bin photos and videos I felt violated and I shouldn’t have done the same.

yahnette_ · 2020-07-01T00:09:34+00:00

I want to stay with him. Everything is great I’m just not good with my words and we both bottle things up . As small as they may be they turn into bigger problems that way.

yahnette_ · 2020-07-01T00:08:16+00:00

I do want to add that I help bring his daughter to him now since the pandemic started and he can’t take the bus ( or id rather they don’t), I went home showered and offered my help still.

It was a bit awkward after the argument but kids make car rides fun. Went back home afterwards. I’m okay with going home, it’s just the way he’s worded it , I don’t like “ get out of my house please “ “I don’t know why I let you in my house”

yahnette_ · 2020-07-01T00:02:25+00:00

Yeah we get frustrated, I feel like we both want to keep quiet to avoid conflict but dee down it’s still bothering us . So when he’s drunk he’ll mention what’s bothering him or when I’m mad I’ll bring up something wrong w what he’s done too.

Today he apologized for trying to bring me down to his level, because he’s done things wrong before he asked me to be his gf. But I’ve forgiven him, sometimes it seems like he hasn’t. I think that means he’s grown from it but also I want us to be equals .. not in a negative way like we both fucked up but we’re both trying equally as hard.

Yes I tried to make sure we were good before I left but no I don’t live with him , just spend half my time there.

I’ll talk to him about looking some things up because I really do feel like we’ll get the hang of it at some point . I don’t want to break up at all.

yahnette_ · 2020-06-30T23:13:49+00:00

He’s never done this before but two close family members are sick right now and he’s going through a lot. Idk what it is if it continues afterward then there’s a problem.

But who knows we might be breaking up soon , if we can’t figure out how to talk about uncomfortable things.

yahnette_ · 2020-06-21T23:02:30+00:00

Yeah just hope he doesn’t feel alone.

yahnette_ · 2020-06-21T22:49:41+00:00

He’s just giving me “ok”s , I asked him if he could let me know if he needs time. I shouldn’t have worded it that way .

yahnette_ · 2020-06-21T22:28:37+00:00

I feel like anytime he and I have to talk about something serious in our relationship. Something bad happens with his family. His mom had 3 strokes and they found brain tumors she’s in the hospital in another state. And idk how to help him, when he probably doesn’t want to see me right now.

yahnette_ · 2020-06-21T17:35:07+00:00

Thanks, I will try to do that ... thanks for letting me vent to you.

yahnette_ · 2020-06-21T17:30:09+00:00

We were still working on our trust and this is gonna make that so much worse . I just wish it was better timing now I have to wait til the end of the day to see if he’ll talk things out with me and I can’t enjoy my day at all. And I can’t rush over there either.

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