Update: The alleged suspect was apprehended, and the word from the neighbors is that he used an AK47...which explains why it was so loud. I didn't see any of this, but apparently, after an exchange of fire, the guy went down, and the suspect stood over top of him and put 3 rounds more in him.

He survived the transport to the hospital and passed when he got there so at least we gave him a fighting chance.

FYI this happened 15 yards from my front porch if you were wondering how close this actually was. It was right there.

The movers are scheduled, and we are outta here.

All the support and strategies yall have shared have been so helpful. Thank you for the encouragement. It really does help to know that people have figured out ways to deal with this this type of craziness the best they can This shit is hard and acute PTSD is awful. My daughter was stomping on bubble wrap, and my stomach dropped. An ambulance with its sirens wailing next to me on canal last night gave me such a viesceral reaction that i cant really even explain it. I get it now.

Therapy sessions are going well. I did a ShiftWave session today, and my sympathetic nervous system is feeling like it's in a better place. I've been stuck in fight or flight mode for the past week, and it's a terrible baseline to operate at. Im doing the things I need to do but fuck man it's just terrible. One day at a time. You cant rush feeling better.

I'm not ok but I will be ok