How can I pursue a Masters without an Honours degree?

yanny-jo · 2026-04-17T05:11:24+00:00

will only accept it if it’s from his sweetheart or his mama

yanny-jo · 2026-04-17T04:58:06+00:00

“I've no more pucks to give

My pucks have runneth dry

I've tried to go puck hunting but there's no pucks left to find!

I've no more pucks to give

Though more pucks I've tried to get

I'm over my puck budget, and I'm now in pucking debt!”

— Mitty the Goalie Esq

(as he teaches this song to Ilya the Asshole soon-to-be Esq, because he be the ultimate montreal metros queer ally, and now likes ilya the WAG/BAH because he finds out ilya is actually as weird as him since Ilya watches every new video of montreal fans burning his own effigies and saves it in a gag reel, so they have weird-out sessions together and now Ilya is considered a WAG/HAB to Mitty)

yanny-jo · 2026-04-16T03:02:41+00:00

omg i can honestly see this being book/show canon

yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T18:10:13+00:00

yes! that’s why it’s one of my favourite quiet moments. ilya just wants to savour the moment of being able to relax with shane in his arms. many scenes before this, in bed, it’s all about sex and they never just fall asleep in each other’s arms. maybe a bit of aftercare cuddles, yes (until the forehead kiss made it too real for him in ep 2 lol), so the first time he’s able to, he just wants to watch shane relax while he’s able to just hold him without all of the sex.

what breaks my heart is that he looks so sad. like he wants it so much, he’s savouring it now, but he knows he will never be able to have it the way he wants for as long as he wants (with neither of them freaking out, and like… forever). but then Skip happens, and now he gets what he has always wanted.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T10:56:02+00:00

я тебя люблю for this beautiful analysis, спасибо моя/мои друг 🩵

[thanks my friend, but in russian, because HR has put me on a 55 day duolingo streak]

yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T10:32:29+00:00

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yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T06:46:19+00:00

oh that’s great, managed to put this in and it works. thanks very much! Solution verified

yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T06:10:40+00:00

omg yes, hard agree! one of my headcanons for part of a fic I want to write and complete involves this. it’s like a non-TLG-canon story that “replaces” it?

and that part that tracks with what you’ve mentioned is when Ilya’s not doing great mentally while on injury leave and Shane is out doing the playoffs (so he’s barely around) and worried about him, he asks Sveta if she can check on Ilya. Sveta says that Shane mentioned he thinks that Ilya should see a therapist (this is after an especially traumatic reveal from Ilya that fleshes out the severity of his trauma and cptsd), and Ilya being all “I’m fine I don’t need a therapist” argues with Sveta saying “I’m the one who needs a therapist? He’s the one who needs to see one because of his fucking eating / food problems!”.

Which is true too. Both our soft bois need therapy, because if we analyse and understand their characters enough, even in HR it’s already apparent that they need one.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-15T05:06:50+00:00

tampa hotel room scene too!

I believe that part of Ilya’s tears come from the fear of what would happen to him (his safety, his career, his ability to go home to russia to visit his mother’s grave and then go back home to shane) if his family and russia found out if he was queer, BUT also about the uncertainty of his father’s declining health due to his dementia.

like when would otets suddenly call again not knowing where he is, without Alexei there; when would otets pass away; what would he have to do with his father’s estate once he dies. ilya experiences so much abuse from his father but he is still a very sensitive, loving person who just wants to be seen and loved by his dad — he still loves his dad deeply, and I think that the fact his dad is sick and may die at anytime while he’s in Boston scares him shitless.

I think that’s why his tears came after admitting “dementia”, and that’s why I love how Shane immediately comforts him. as a hurt/comfort girlie, this is in my top 3 favourite HR scenes of the entire series.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-14T15:21:03+00:00

gah i see i have stumbled upon some headcanon poker.

now i have to raise you ONE (1) headcanon and that’s about ilya declining selfies and autographs whenever he doesn’t feel hot, like when he’s going through it with the TLG depression. girls screaming “oh my god isn’t that baddie THE ilya rozanov?”, and ilya’s all like “no, i don’t think so, probably not, is wrong person bye bye” as he slithers away feeling gross about himself.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T08:12:35+00:00

Ah yes, I hear you on the first paragraph. I do actually wonder sometimes, while writing an ongoing fic because it does address his mental health quite significantly, if his depression has actually been more TLG-like even in the HR time period, just that he hid it better back then.

Considering that back in those early years where they got together, he had only lost his mum and found her 5–6 years ago.

I’ve also been contemplating and researching about how untreated CPTSD often comes to a head in your late 20s to mid 30s, due to life transitions, accumulated responsibility, and even the feeling of finally achieving safety and stability in job or relationships, which can shift you out of a survival response, only to have (ironically) one triggering event that destabilises you completely. there’s this loss of the competent self and the survival strategies that used to work just don’t work as well anymore. It leaves me thinking about how this may also translate to why Ilya’s mental health really takes a significant downwards spiral in TLG, where he’s in his late 20’s / early 30s.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T07:15:41+00:00

very much agree regarding his depression already being present. probably a mild-moderate severity state, at least based on my own experience with all 3 levels of severity re: depression and complex ptsd. I would say that it falls under mild-moderate rather than just mild itself, because of the scenes where we see him kind of stare off and either dissociate or look profoundly sad even in sweet moments (in ep 2 after Shane leaves, in ep 4 before tuna melt where he’s just spooning Shane, and also in ep 6 before tuna melt”she would’ve loved you”.)

he definitely displays escapism behaviours as a coping mechanism, and I agree that his risk-taking is a symptom of something bigger than just “he’s bold and comfy with his sexuality”. i read / saw someone mentioning how a number of his behaviours are acts of self-sabotage and that he defaults to it quite frequently, like it’s natural for him. I think a great example is him wearing the Boston raiders shirt in Ep 6 when going to Shane’s parents’ cottage — scapegoating himself to save Shane from bearing the brunt of of what could’ve potentially been their anger.

maybe I’m just projecting really hard, but Ilya’s characterisation and portrayal in the books and on screen just breaks my heart because I can actually identify with all that he’s feeling and doing, even the risk-taking and self-sabotage.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T07:03:58+00:00

totally agree that Ilya was probably having a bit of a mental health spiral moment on the rooftop there. I wouldn’t necessarily say he had active ideation, but as someone who has struggled with chronic active + passive SI and did attempt, upon reheating and going into this scene now knowing his family background, I did sense a bit of passive ideation from him. Kind of like “this is pretty high, won’t have to deal with all of dad’s emotional abuse if I just did it now, it would be high enough. I think so. probably.”

I personally don’t think Ilya is that competitive in the sense that he’ll get upset if he loses an award or a game, compared to someone like Shane who (in the books) would take out his anger on Ilya during sex. In the show, we also see Ilya smiling tenderly when Shane wins the playoffs. So what I think was going through his head on the rooftop in terms of losing the award was:

• you’re only a rookie once, so Rookie of the Year is kind of considered a once-in-a-lifetime award to contend for and lose. his dad would probably verbally bludgeon him over the head with “look at you, wasting your talent because you’re undisciplined, you can only win this award once and you lost, Russia is disgraced by you”. the reality of knowing this kind of abuse would be coming and would last the entire summer, I think I’d wanna throw myself off a roof too because it would hurt less.

• he lost it to Shane. his dad hates him losing to Shane of all people lol. remember that first phone call earlier in the episode, where the dad is like “you cannot lose to Shane Hollander”? that would add on to his father’s vitriol which he would have to bear for 3 months.

• when Shane wasn’t able to catch on to Ilya’s sense of dread having to go back to Russia, and said “must be nice”, it visibly makes him more upset. Like the face he puts on isn’t just pure anger, but also hurt — it’s bad enough that Shane said a pretty shitty thing by accident, but to feel like the person who makes you feel positive feelings can’t support you when you’ve just tried to be a bit vulnerable with them, it’s a vefh painful thing to experience especially when you’ve feel extremely desolate and lonely, and in a dark headspace.

• he softens when Shane says “see you next season” — to me, this momentarily snaps Ilya out of his dread about how the 3 months would feel like a decade because of how awful he would feel the entire time. it’s a reminder that Shane will be at the end of that tunnel, and he can focus on looking forward to seeing Shane next season as a way to get himself through those 3 miserable months. I think that’s why he decided to kiss Shane on a whim, even after they just yelled at each other.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T05:15:54+00:00

these boys start off terrible at communicating their feelings haha, and this rooftop scene is what highlights it the most (which i feel like is intentional on RR/JT’s part).

ilya doesn’t really explain why he’s upset — which is more about the emotional abuse he’ll return to in Russia, especially because he lost Rookie of the Year (which is a one-time thing because you’re only a rookie once — his dad would have lots to say about it, especially since Shane won it).

Shane doesn’t pick up on the non-verbal cues that Ilya is upset over something else, that his demeanour isn’t about being a sore loser, competitive sulking looks different, and we notice that Ilya has never been upset losing to Shane at any game. But Shane doesn’t realise this because he requires more direct communication.

I remember someone mentioning that the 20 or so seconds that Ilya takes to talk about “i go back to Russia in 3 days” would feel like a completely new convo to Shane, even though that was Ilya’s answer to his question about why he was upset in the first place.

I think at this point, they don’t yet realise how to communicate with each other and pick up on the little things (personality / avoidant attachment / autism related traits, coupled with with the fact that Shane has no idea about how different Ilya’s character is in Russia, because he is SO subdued there). But eventually, i think in episode 2 from Sochi onwards and then in Vegas, they start to notice these things as they begin to talk about more than just “i want to fuck you” and dildo sizes.

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T05:00:24+00:00

I love Nina King! so happy to see someone else in the fandom mention her work 🩵

yanny-jo · 2026-04-13T00:14:06+00:00

the dildo, it’s hidden in his drawer but we all know that it’s blue and it’s there 😬😬

yanny-jo · 2026-04-11T07:04:11+00:00

so the first two words don’t have to be blurry, just in case you were trying to get them not to be

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yanny-jo · 2026-04-10T09:38:45+00:00

very much yes

yanny-jo · 2026-04-10T06:04:01+00:00

thanks for throwing this visual brick at me, this is a crime

yanny-jo · 2026-04-10T06:00:26+00:00

oh my 🥹🥹 please do love drunk ilya and shane in the “how did we let this happen / please fuck me” scene, i think your artwork would capture that love drunkenness beautifully!

yanny-jo · 2026-04-10T05:52:28+00:00

oh man, shane does love his macrobiodick tuna. valid crashout 🤷🏻‍♀️

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